Thursday, December 01, 2005
Even in the midst of issues and trials and persecution, He stays by the side of the faithful ones and gives peace. Yes, in the midst of crap, He gives peace. I am so encouraged by the stories of others: friends, family, strangers, and bible figures that even when I feel down, I am lifted up because I continue to look up. He's awesome, I tell ya, awesome!
Sunday, November 20, 2005
Another thing came to my mind while I tried to hold in my tears. This was, how come for the last little while I seem to shed tears at everything. Well not everything but more things than I would like to admit. I don't want you all to think I am this cry baby over here, because it isn't like that. But when I hear a testimony I cry, when I see people giving their life to Jesus I cry, when I am listening to a sermon I cry, when I tell someone a story about one of the above I cry, when I listen as someone pours out their heart to me I cry. I don't know why I do this, but it seems that I can't help myself. I don't think it is a bad thing either. I seem to cry for mostly joyful things, which is the best reason for crying anyway. But I seem to have an outpouring of compassion for the lost, the brokenhearted, the sick, the children, and sometimes I feel as though I can feel the Father's heart breaking when I see people rejecting the love He so desperately wants to pour into them.
I was wondering earlier this week, why God would call me to counsel when I would cry along side the one I am trying to help. But then I realized that just because He told me to get the degree in counselling doesn't mean I will be doing the traditional counselling job. I think for me, it is going to be my life. To have compassion for those in need and show them the most awesome thing anyone can show anyone, and that is Jesus!
Also in church while wondering about why I am so sensitive, I recalled that I had blogged once on how I had thought I was all out of tears. Isn't this kind of funny. To think such a thing and then to be overwhelmed with sensitivity. I am glad I have this gift. I call it a gift because not everyone has it. Not everyone can get emotionally stirred just by seeing someone give their life to Jesus, or to hear a story and feel what the person who is telling it is feeling. I would call that a gift. Thank you Jesus, for making me a blubbering, crying, silly, sensitive person.
Monday, November 14, 2005
I found out not long ago that someone close to me has been having problems in her marriage. But through everything that she has and is going through the Lord is the one who comforts, provides and strengthens her daily. In this horrible trial she has grown deeper in her relationship with the Lord and I see it. She is an awesome lady and God will bless her because she is the one standing strong and honouring God.
I pray for her family, I pray that they will find strength and comfort in the Lord. That they will see the light at the end of the tunnel and that the hope that is in Christ shines through in them. I pray that no matter what life throws at them that it will bounce right off them. I pray they will find peace and contentment in any situation that they are in. And that they will seek the Lord daily, and find wisdom in His Word. In Jesus' name I pray. Amen.
Sunday, November 06, 2005
By Cynthia Johnston
MEGIDDO PRISON, Israel (Reuters) - In a maximum-security jail just down the road from Armageddon, Israeli archaeologists have unearthed what they believe is the oldest church discovered in the land where Jesus was born.
"This is one of the most important finds of early Christianity," archaeologist Yardena Alexandre of the Israel Antiquities told journalists on a tour of the excavation on Sunday.
Remains of the church, which archaeologists date to the mid-third to early-fourth century, were found during a dig for possible artifacts before the planned construction of a new prison wing.
The ruins of the church include a mosaic tile floor with inscriptions in ancient Greek containing a reference to "The God Jesus Christ" and could shed light on early Christian practices.
Wednesday, November 02, 2005
On the flipside, I have others approach me and for some reason or another they just know that there is something different in me and want to know more about it. Which of course opens the door of discussion.
I guess I just have to always remember that whenever God wants to do something amazing re: save souls, the devil is always trying to stop it from happening. I see both, but God is the one who always comes out on top and the devil already knows he is defeated. Amen to that!
Tuesday, November 01, 2005
I have found that over the past little while I have been struggling with some issues and I realized it is always good to talk with someone or express my feelings in some way. This is what brought me back to this little corner on the web. Even though I can be quite vague at times, this blog has helped me to express/collect/examine/re-examine my thoughts. This is what I have been lacking - lately I have been holding a lot in and I know that it is not only unwise but also unhealthy for me. And so I have returned.
So if you dare, I invite you to continue share my journey through life for we are all here for a purpose and God will surely direct our path to get us there.
Wednesday, August 10, 2005
Anyway, lots has been going on in the world or better yet, mind of Angela. The thing that really stands out the most is that God clearly and distinctly told me something way back in January and to make it totally clear that it was His voice that I heard, I asked for confirmation, not once but twice. Both times He confirmed it! Now I should be very happy considering what was said but somehow little by little doubt tends to creep back in.
I told a good friend about this whole thing and he said that I just have to wait on God. He also said that most people have to wonder about this particular thing for what seems like forever. I am lucky to know the answer. The problem is here: Is it better to know which way your life is going and have no clue when it will happen? Or is it just easier to not know?
I used to think that knowing is better but since that day in January I haven't stopped obsessing over it and sometimes I wish that I didn't know although I am thankful that I do. I know this is confusing. It's confusing for me too!
I guess it is better to know. And maybe part of the lesson I need to learn is just to have patience and wait on God. Sometimes that seems so hard, though. I just want it to happen now. I sound like a little kid. But it is so true. I have prayed about this particular thing for so long, He finally gives me an answer, and now I have to wait longer. Grrrrrr..... :-)
I know I am in the waiting stage for a few things and because I know this I should not be expecting anything to happen right now, but I so badly want it. It is frustrating but it is also a relief. I just think about how long those in the bible had to wait on things. Take Moses for example: 40yrs in palace, 40yrs preparing, 40yrs in wilderness. He had 40yrs of preparation. Who said waiting is fun?! Holy moly! And David who knew he was to become king when he was just 18yrs old but had to wait until he was thirty to fully receive it. I know, it is all about God's timing. And His timing is the best, right and only timing. Do I have the patience as one like Moses or David? I can't even begin to compare myself to either of these two individuals, it is incomprehensible. I know I don't have tons of patience. I know I can be impulsive and crazy sometimes and I know that I have to wait on God. I just pray that I can. I have too! I want too!!
Sunday, July 03, 2005
I finished my summer classes two weeks ago. Everything went really well. I wasn't as fond as summer school though mostly because they cram so many lessons into such a short time.
I started a new job last week. I went back into my old field, which I was so reluctant to do but it pays relatively well and it gives me time with my children.
The same-sex bill seems to be slipping right in to law with the help of those lovely liberals, ndps, and bloc-quebecuois(?). I wonder how long it is going to take before all of our Canadian morals goes down the tube. I really wished that more people would have stood up for religious freedom but I guess not enough care about it. The sad thing was that there were very few Christian leaders standing up. It seems as though the Moslems, Sikhs, and Catholics care more for the rights and freedoms of generations to come.
I keep hearing that there are two ways for a revival to come into this nation: we get on our knees and pray or prosecution. It seems as though it is going to be the latter of the two. It takes only a few to pray, but we are too caught up in our own lives to care about anything else. I ask: What is wrong with the church today? We are all sleeping and we like to stay in our comfort zone.
Let me ask you this: When a homosexual couple comes into your church to get married what are you going to do? Break the law and stand up for Christ or marry because the law says so? Interesting thing to add to this little 'equation': what about when you stand the chance of losing your charitable status? The sad thing is I believe more would follow the law then Christ. I guess more of us are really goat instead of sheep!
Tuesday, June 14, 2005
You may not know Me, but I know everything about you...Psalms 139:1
I know when you sit down and when you rise up...Psalm 139:2
I am familiar with all your ways...Psalm 139:3
Even the very hairs on you head are numbered...Matthew 10:29-31
For you were made in My image...Genesis 1:27
In Me you live and move and have your being...Acts 17:28
For you are My offspring...Acts 17:28
I knew you even before you were conceived...Jeremiah 1:4-5
I chose you when I planned creation...Ephesians 1:11-12
You were not a mistake, for all your days are written in My book...Psalm 139:15-16
I determined the exact time of your birth and where you would live...Acts 17:26
You are fearfully and wonderfully made...Psalm 139:14
I knit you together in your mother's womb...Psalm 139:13
And brought you forth on the day you were born...Psalm 71:6
I have been misrepresented by those who don't know Me...John 8:41-44
I am not distant and angry, but am the complete expression of love...1 John 4:16
And it is My desire to lavish My love on you... 1 John 3:1
Simply because you are My child and I am your father...1 John 3:1
I offer you more than your earthly father every could...Matthew 7:11
For I am the perfect father...Matthew 5:48
Every good gift that you receive comes from My hand...James 1:17
For I am your provider, and I meet all your needs...Matthew 6:31-33
My plan for your future has always been filled with hope...Jeremiah 29:11
Because I love you with an everlasting love...Jeremiah 31:3
My thoughts toward you are countless as the sand on the seashore...Psalm 139:17-18
And I rejoice over you with singing...Zephaniah 3:17
I will never stop doing good to you...Jeremiah...32:40
For you are My treasured possession...Exodus 19:5
I desire to establish you with all My heart and all My soul...Jeremiah 32:41
And I want to show you great and marvelous things...Jeremiah 33:3
If you seek Me with all your heart, you will find Me...Deuteronomy 4:29
Delight in Me, and I will give you the desires of your heart...Psalm 37:4
For it is I who gave you those desires...Philippians 2:13
I am able to do more for you than you could possibly imagine...Ephesians 3:20
For I am your greatest encourager...2 Thessalonians 2:16-17
I am also the Father who comforts you in all your troubles...2 Corinthians 1:3-4
When you are brokenhearted, I am close to you...Psalm 34:18
As a shepherd carries a lamb, I have carried you close to My heart...Isaiah 40:11
One day I will wipe away every tear from your eyes...Revelations 21:3-4
And I'll take away all the pain you have suffered on this earth...Revelation 21:3-4
I am you Father, and I love you even as I love My son, Jesus...John 17:23
For in Jesus, My love for you is revealed...John 17:26
He is the exact representation of My being...Hebrews 1:3
He came to demonstrate that I am for you, not against you...Romans 8:31
And to tell you that I am not counting your sins...2 Corinthians 5:18-19
His death was the ultimate expression of My love for you...1 John 4:10
I gave up everything I loved that I might gain your love...Romans 8:31-32
If you receive the gift of My Son, Jesus, you receive me...1 John 2:23
And nothing will ever separate you from My love again...Romans 8:38-39
Come home, and I'll throw the biggest party heaven has ever seen...Luke 15:7
I have always been Father and will always be Father...Ephesians 3:14-15
My question is...Will you be My child?...John 1:12-13
I am waiting for you...Luke 15:11-32
Love, Your Dad, Almighty God
Taken from Experiencing Father's Embrace, by Jack Frost
'Father's Love Letter used by permission Father Heart Communications Copyright 1999-2005 www.FathersLoveLetter.com'
Thursday, June 09, 2005
And feel that you're to blame somehow;
On earth, I walked with you day by day
And never did you point the way.
You knew the Lord in Truth and Glory,
But never did you tell the story;
My knowledge then was very dim;
You could have led me safe to Him.
Though we lived together on the earth,
You never told me of the second birth;
And now I stand the day condemned,
Because you failed to mention Him.
You taught me many things, that's true;
I called you friend and trusted you;
But now I learn the truth too late,
You could have kept me from this fate.
We walked by day and talked by night,
And yet you showed me not the light;
You let me live, and love, and die,
You knew I'd never live on high.
Yes, I called you "friend" in life,
And trusted you through joy and strife;
And yet, on coming to the end,
I cannot now call you "my friend".
Saturday, June 04, 2005
There was a good turn out too. There is something special that happens when a bunch of people come together and pray about the same thing. I believe God is going to do something mighty in this land. Wow, if you haven't tried to stay up all night to pray, I suggest that you do. You will be blown away by the awesomeness that is God.
Well, have a great weekend. Enjoy the weather, who knows how long it will last. This is Canada you know! :-)
Wednesday, May 25, 2005
On Saturday I had a bbq with a bunch of friends. It turned out really great. Everyone seemed to have a great time and the weather was perfect. We celebrated five of our birthdays - Richard, Hernan, Eric, Eugenie and Angela (that's me :-). My friend Jaime made the cake and it was awesome. We ended up having a water balloon fight and then the hose came out. It felt good to be in the company of great people.
On Sunday I had to drive up to North Bay for my aunt Marie's funeral. It was a nice little service in a united church. Being in a united church felt very weird. The things the pastor was saying was misleading and I wanted to stand up and tell her to tell the truth but I didn't. It was a funeral and that is no way to show love. But I was egging inside. After the funeral we headed to my cousins house. I saw some family I haven't seen in quite awhile. I wish that it didn't always have to take something bad to bring everyone together.
On Monday Skye and I headed down to Queen's Park for the Defend Marriage Rally. That was really cool. There were over 5000 people there. It was suppose to rain all afternoon but as the rally continued on the clouds parted, the sun shone through and the sky became this beautiful blue. Isn't it great to have God on our side? There were about 22 speakers from around Canada from different denominations, there were also Moslems and Sikhs. I find it quite weird that we are classed as inferior to the Moslems and yet they join with us for this cause. I guess I shouldn't be that surprised the bible talks about religions joining together. Something we as Christians would never have even thought could be possible and slowly it is all coming together. But anyway, that is a totally different topic.
I hope you all had a great weekend. God bless you!
Monday, May 16, 2005
I do thank the Lord for giving me the desire to want to pick up His Word day in and day out. He has taught me so much in this little bit of time that it only could be accredited to Him. I am an official work in progress and I really can not wait for each day to come so that I can say 'More Lord'.
When I have been counselling people, it has never felt like work but when I am in class I get this overwhelming feeling of doubt. I know it is Satan pushing me back. I know that I have to push forward. Because I've been studying the Word more, I have a little bit better understanding of the spiritual battle that is going on around us and my only defense is the Word. I pray to be grounded in the Word Lord and fight back just as Jesus did in the desert.
I have noticed a common occurrence that happens to us. We feel the Lord, we are hungry for the Word, we pray diligently and then something seems to happen that we lose the 'feeling', we feel distant from the Lord and we wonder what happened. The first thing that we should ask ourselves is 'Did we stop praying?' and 'Did we stop reading the Word?'. We get so focused on the things that are happening in front of us and we begin to lose sight of the Lord. God never is the one to leave it is always us who turn our eye onto something else. Our relationship with Jesus is an every day journey. It starts when we ask Jesus into our hearts and never finishes, not even when we close our eyes to sleep.
Heavenly Father, I ask that You renew our minds and our hearts for you. That we may walk with You and drown in your Spirit. Lord, I pray that everyone would seek You because when they do they will find you right there waiting. Father I know that Your promises are true and You will never fail us. I ask that everyone would lay down their troubles at Your feet and pick up their cross and follow You. You never promised an easy life, actually you said the opposite. So I pray that we look to heaven and not to the world for our reward. And when we find we are being tempted and in despair that we put our trust in You and diligently seek You. Your Word says "Submit to God, Resist the devil, and He will flee from you". Lord, I pray that you will convict all of us of our sins and draw all of us nearer to you. First we must submit and then we resist the devil. It is not the other way around. We need to lay down our life for You. Help us to see this and not be afraid but rejoice and be glad for even the apostles found joy in their sufferings. I ask that we all pray this "Let the words of my mouth and the meditation of my heart be acceptable in Your sight O' Lord, my strength and my redeemer". In Jesus' name I pray. Amen
Tuesday, May 10, 2005
I prayed for God's hand to be on the surgeon and for Matthew to recover quickly. Well, within two hours of having the surgery, Matthew was himself again. All day you would not have even thought that he had surgery.
God really is amazing and He sends His grace upon us. I am thankful for His presence in our lives and I am thankful for the blessings and the trials.
Saturday, May 07, 2005
I learned that this was their second meeting of nine to pray over Canada. We prayed for leadership inside and outside of the church, this and next generations, healing in the land. We repented for generational sin and deliverance. We praised God and had a time of thanksgiving.
This really was quite the experience. Their next meeting is on June 3rd and I most certainly plan on being there. If anyone is interested in finding out more about this, contact Canada in Prayer. It is a group of intercessors who gather together for a common purpose of prayer throughout Canada on the first Friday of every month. So while you are praying in Toronto, others are grouped together in Vancouver praying for the same things.
I am glad that God brought me to church last night. He rejuvenated everyone who was there, especially the musicians who played all night long without a break. Thank God for his anointing and for His fresh flow of grace raining down on us.
Friday, May 06, 2005
In Phoenix, Arizona, a 26-year-old mother stared down at her 6 year old son, who was dying of terminal leukemia. Although her heart was filled with sadness, she also had a strong feeling of determination. Like any parent, she wanted her son to grow up and fulfill all his dreams. Now that was no longer possible.. The leukemia would see to that. But she still wanted her son's dreams to come true. She took her son's hand and asked, "Billy, did you ever think about what you wanted to be once you grew up? Did you ever dream and wish what you would do with your life?" Mommy, "I always wanted to be a fireman when I grew up." Mom smiled back and said, "Let's see if we can make your wish come true."
Later that day she went to her local fire department in Phoenix, Arizona, where she met Fireman Bob, who had a heart as big as Phoenix. She explained her son's final wish and asked if it might be possible to give her six year old son a ride around the block on a fire engine. Fireman Bob said, "Look, we can do better than that. If you'll have your son ready at seven o'clock Wednesday morning, we'll make him an honorary fireman for the whole day. He can come down to the fire station, eat with us, go out on all the fire calls, the whole nine yards! And if you'll give us ! his sizes, we'll get a real fire uniform for him, with a real fire hat-not a toy one-with the emblem of the Phoenix Fire Department on it, a yellow slicker like we wear and rubber boots. They're all manufactured right here in Phoenix, so we can get them fast."
Three days later Fireman Bob picked up Billy, dressed him in his fire uniform and escorted him from his hospital bed to the waiting hook and ladder truck. Billy got to sit on the back of the truck and help steer it back to the fire station. He was in heaven. There were three fire calls in Phoenix that day and Billy got to go out on all three calls. He rode in the different fire engines, the paramedic's van, and even the fire chief's car. He was also videotaped for the local news program.
Having his dream come true, with all the love and attention that was lavished upon him, so deeply touched Billy that he lived three months longer than any doctor thought possible.
One night all of his vital signs began to drop dramatically and the head nurse, who believed in the hospice concept that no one should die alone, began to call the family members to the hospital. Then she remembered the day Billy had spent as a fireman, so she called the Fire Chief and asked if it would be possible to send a fireman in uniform to the hospital to be with Billy as he made his transition. The chief replied, "We can do better than that. We'll be there in five minutes. Will you please do me a favor? When you hear the sirens screaming and see the lights flashing, will you announce over the PA system that there is not a fire? It's just the fire department coming to see one of its finest members one more time. And will you open the window to his room?
About five minutes later a hook and ladder truck arrived at the hospital and extended its ladder up to Billy's third floor open window 16 firefighters climbed up the ladder into Billy's room. With his mother's permission, they hugged him and held him and told him how much they loved him.
With his dying breath, Billy looked up at the fire chief and said, "Chief, am I really a fireman now?" "Billy, you are, and the Head Chief, Jesus, is holding your hand," the chief said. With those words, Billy smiled and said, "I know, He's been holding my hand all day, and the angels have been singing.." He closed his eyes one last time.
Stop telling God how big your storm is.
Instead tell your storm how big your GOD is !!!
Tuesday, May 03, 2005
Saturday, April 23, 2005
Last week I finished all my exams, assignments and school. The first semester was quite good. I learned so much about the bible. I am fascinated with God and His amazing plan for us. My professors bible study group, which mainly deals with the book of Revelations and Daniel, has been so awesome too. I can't even describe it. I'm am truly loving my classes. I met so many great people. I have been so busy. It's crazy but I love it that way.
I start my summer semester on May 9th. This semester is going to be even more crazy and probably harder then the last because I am still taking six classes, but in a very condensed time frame. Even so, I am still excited about starting again.
I wish that throughout my whole life I was this excited about school. My life would have been so much easier, but I do realize that I had to go through all those crazy times, like high school, to get where I am today. I thank God for where I am today and I can't wait for Him to teach me more about Himself as I come humbly before Him. He really is the most magnificent King on High!
God has been showing me some things in my life that have been blowing me away. As any human would do, I have had doubts at times, and I asked Him to confirm what He has shown me and He did both times. Usually at the last moment, but isn't that how God works. It takes faith, hope and love. It takes giving Him your all and trusting in His promises. I am so grateful for Him. There are no words to explain how thankful I am for my Saviour.
God bless you all. Have a most beautiful day, even if it's raining! :-)
Tuesday, April 05, 2005
School has been awesome. I have been diving into the Word and every time that I do, God shows me something new. I've been praying (I believe) better then I ever have before. I used to be and sometimes still am that type that had no clue what to say or even how to say it but, the Spirit has been working in me and prayers have been more efficient.
Church has also been a blessing. Last Sunday was so good. I don't even know how to describe it. And the Sunday past was about the heart and things that hinder it. It was refreshing. I don't know, but I feel God working even on the days that I don't seem to be and He is just so incredible. I want to see Jesus lifted up and I want His kingdom to grow. I know He is preparing me to be used. How awesome is this?!!!
Ok, I must get back to my work. Have a blessed day.
Tuesday, March 22, 2005
HAPPY BIRTHDAY DADDY! :-)
Earlier today I ventured to the Toronto Reference Library were I had to get some research done for a paper I am doing on 1Cor.13. This library is huge. It has five floors and you can get books dated way back to the 1800's, maybe even earlier. Anyway, I remember back when I was in college we had to do a bomb threat procedure on any building and I picked this library. The memories of college came rushing back and I kept thinking, a bomb threat! Wow, have my studies really changed since then. I wasn't a Christian back then and I never thought I would end up in the religion section, of all places. This has only been my second visit back to this particular library since the bomb threat procedure project. My first was only a week ago.
Time sure flies by so quickly. I remember when I was a kid and it seemed that the school year would take what felt like forever to end and now I look at the date and its already almost April, where did the year go? Where did the year go so far for you?
It is so sad to say but this year has been pretty hard for my family. We have already had two deaths, and three aunts and two uncles are either in or have been in the hospital. On a lighter note I got to share the message of Jesus to family members, my sister is having a baby which is due in April, my dad/brother/uncle and cousin are going to church on Wednesday, my cousin is getting married this fall, and lately we have been sharing a lot of family memories, which have been beautiful.
Cherish the times together because you really don't know when the big guy up there is going to call you home.
Love, embrace, share, laugh, cry and enjoy!!
Wednesday, March 16, 2005
top: (left to right) Tom, Dale, Irene, Brenda, Patricia, Kenny and Gary
bottom: (left to right) Grandma(Theresa), Michele, Grandpa(Harry), and Darrell
Firstly, I would like to thank any and all who prayed for my grandfather's salvation. On Thursday, March 10th, which happened to be my sister's 34th birthday, my grandfather passed away in his sleep. I don't know if he gave his life to Christ but I must hold on to the fact that Jesus didn't send me to speak to him in vain. Jesus had a purpose and a plan. This is what I will always remember. If anything, it helped me to rely on Jesus even more especially when I am put in opposition, which is more often then not. He is my rock and my redeemer. I will trust in him at all times. Who else can we trust? Except God himself. So, I continue to pray for my grandfather, and I do hope to meet him in the heavenly place one day.
He left 9 children (2 predeased), 22 grandchildren and 16 great grandchildren. He will be deeply missed.
Harry Talbot Sharp
August 3, 1931-March 10, 2005
I end with this poem.
Fill not your hearts with pain and sorrow,
But remember me in every tomorrow.
Remember the joy, the laughter, the smiles,
I've only gone to rest a little while.
Although my leaving causes pain and grief,
My going has eased my hurt and given me relief.
So dry your eyes and remember me,
Not as I am now, but as I used to be.
Because, I will remember you all and look on with a smile.
Understand, in your hearts, I've only gone to rest a little while.
As long as I have the love of each of you,
I can live my life in the hearts of all of you.
Wednesday, March 09, 2005
Monday, March 07, 2005
Saturday, February 26, 2005
At first I was a little upset. Mostly because all they ever talked about was honesty and integrity (even when they were letting me go), and they really were only talking about it to make themselves feel justified. I really dislike dishonesty. I think what they did was terrible. And I really hope they don't do it to anyone else. I was the only one speaking honestly and openly about my faith, that too could be a reason. But truthfully, it really doesn't matter because in the end we all are held accountable to God.
So, what do I do now? I pray for them and me. God is on my side and I know He is working in me and through me. With God all things are possible if we only put our faith in Him. That is what I am in the process of learning and doing. I also must remember that God is in control, and I know He takes care of me.
The second thing that was a downer is that I found out that my grandfather is in the hospital. They had been running tests to see what was wrong with the pain in his side and when they did a catscan on him they found cancer. Not just a little cancer. He seems to have full blown lung and bone cancer. They gave him only four weeks. What is worst of all is that he does not know the Lord.
My friend from school volunteered to come with me to the hospital and we are going to have a real chat with him, today. One like he has never heard before. I really hope in the end, whether we are there or not, that he gives his heart to the Lord. Only him and God will know. And that is fine with me. All week, all I have been thinking about is what do I say, how do I do it. I have never done anything like this ever. I guess there really is a first for everything. I am no pastor, but I know that the Lord will give me the words. If it isn't too much trouble, I could use your prayers too.
Monday, February 21, 2005
I recommend you check out this site: defendMarriage.ca . It is a valuable tool in keeping up with what the gov't is doing and what you can do also.
After the fundraising dinner, I went out with my brother and handed out brochures. I plan to continue to do this. This is definitely worth fighting for.
Wednesday, February 16, 2005
How to Defend Traditional Wedded Bliss
by Lorrie Goldstein
The next few months are going to be dangerous ones for those of us who support the traditional definition of marriage as the union of one man and one woman. Herewith then, a survival guide for avoiding the slings and arrows of Paul Martin, Jack Layton and the liberal commentariat.
(1) Beware of any journalist who claims that he or she knows what a future Supreme Court will do on any given issue such as: "The Supreme Court will never force religious institutions to marry same-sex couples against their will." Journalists pretending to be legal eagles are like pit bulls pretending to be brain surgeons. You don't want to be around to see the results.
(2) In any discussion of same-sex marriage in the liberal media, count on their side to be represented by 134 constitutional lawyers and 268 spokesmen for Egale Canada, and our side to be represented by Billy Bob Baggins of Backwater, Sask. and the Very Rev. Homer Phobia of the First Church of Hairy Muffins.
(3) Avoid, at all costs, the CBC. If they come at you with a microphone, run.
(4) Expect Liberals to say they know you're personally struggling with this difficult issue about 10 minutes before they call you a bigot.
(5) Expect NDPers to skip straight to the bigot part.
(6) Expect to be portrayed as part of a dwindling minority of Neanderthals who would have kept slaves in another life, even though, as a COMPAS poll this week confirmed yet again, Canadians favour retaining the traditional definition of marriage by a margin of almost two to one over those who want to change it.
(7) Expect the compromise which would satisfy the largest group of Canadians on this issue - retaining the traditional definition of marriage while providing equal rights to homosexuals through civil unions (see COMPAS) - to be dismissed by the liberal commentariat as a bigoted view actually held only by Stephen Harper and a handful of American militias.
(8) Expect those who support same-sex marriages to frequently stamp their feet and proclaim "a right is a right is a right!" as if this ends the debate. Smile back and say, "A marriage is a marriage is a marriage - boogah, boogah!"
(9) Expect those who support same-sex marriage to say stuff like "it's time we got back to serious issues like health care" and then go right on talking about same-sex marriage.
(10) Expect exhaustive media analysis of how Stephen Harper is playing politics with this issue, and no analysis of how Paul Martin is playing politics with this issue.
(11) Please be advised that any mention of the "notwithstanding clause" will be punishable by incarceration at a Liberal re-education camp until such time as a team of three government-approved psychiatrists unanimously agrees that you no longer pose an imminent danger to yourself or to others.
(12) Expect the liberal commentariat to always argue that "being treated equally doesn't necessarily mean being treated the same" when it comes to employment equity, and to never argue that "being treated equally doesn't necessarily mean being treated the same" when it comes to same-sex marriage.
(13) Never ask a member of the liberal commentariat why, if same-sex marriage is a fundamental right, only two countries on Earth have recognized it.
(14) Never ask them if they are seriously suggesting that countries like Denmark and Sweden, which recognize civil unions for homosexuals, are bastions of bigotry and repressed sexual attitudes. Since the liberal commentariat normally love talking about Denmark and Sweden, this will only confuse them.
(15) Never expect the liberal commentariat to ask Paul Martin, why, if he considers same-sex marriages to be a fundamental human right, he voted against recognizing them in the House of Commons in 1999.
(16) Do ask the liberal commentariat to point out, where, exactly, the words "sexual orientation" appear in Section 15 of the Charter. Remember, you want to see the words. Accept no substitutes, especially any answer containing the words "read in."
Monday, February 14, 2005
Yesterday, I experienced an awesome love. The love of the Father being poured out into me. It is totally awesome when you realize the Father is using you to help out someone else, one you don't even know. I think that is the greatest love. To love unselfishly, to not care about what others are thinking, just doing as you are called to do. I find it amazing how every day I learn something new about this love that God has for us. To care so deeply for us when we, over history, have always turned our backs on Him. How great His love is for us!
Last week, I helped out someone from my school and they had said it was the answer to their prayers. Yes, more than one prayer. I was like wow!! When we listen to God and do as He wills, our life is so much more fulfilling. What a blessing it is to have the best kind of relationship in the world!! You too can have this relationship too, it just takes faith. Come and lets leap together on this fantastic journey of faith.
Thursday, February 03, 2005
Monday, January 31, 2005
Last night I felt like a little kid again. I played Ms. Pac-Man, Dr. Mario and Xevius. We actually had more games then I remembered and after blowing into the cartridge and wiping off some dust, the games played like new. There is nothing like the old system. I miss those types of games. The new games are fine but the Nintendo, and Atari were the best. Ok, ya, I'm old. It's funny because I used to say that to my dad and now I'm the old one! :-)
Friday, January 28, 2005
To have a deep full relationship with another....
But God to the believer says,
"No, not until you are satisfied and content with being loved by me alone...
with giving yourself totally and unreservedly to Me.
I love you my child, and until you discover that only in
Me is your satisfaction to be found, you will not be capable
of the perfect human realtionship I have planned for you.
You will never be united with Me
exclusive of any other desire or longing.
I want you to stop planning, stop wishing and allow Me
to bring that person to you.
Keep listening and learning that things I tell you...
You just wait, that's all.
And when you are ready, I will surprise you with a love
more wonderful that you can ever dream of.
You see until you are ready, I am working this very minute
to have you both ready at the same time...
Until you are both satisfied exclusively with Me,
and the life I have prepared for you,
you won't be able to experience that love that exemplifies your
relationshhip to Me - and this is the perfect love.
And dear one, I want you to see in the flesh a picture of your
relationship to me and enjoy maturely and concretely
the everlasting union of beauty and perfection
and the love that I offer you with Myself.
Please know that I love you utterly.
BELIEVE AND BE SATISFIED.
taken from My Perspective
Tuesday, January 25, 2005
Months ago God shed some light on my future and it scared me. I must say that sometimes I still am afraid but I can tell you what: this time I haven't and won't give into that fear. I am pushing through it and in the process growing in my faith and love toward God. I find it awesome that He preserved a book for me to learn from for decades. And I have the privilege of picking it up and learning as much as He wants me too, from it. And in doing so, I may do His will in my life thereby touching people on the way.
It's kind of funny but last night I went to see a movie with two close friends. Now you must understand that I have loved movies for as long as I can remember and have been an avid collector. But the whole time I watched it I was thinking that I was sitting there wasting valuable time that I could be spending with God and maybe I should be talking with my friends about Him instead of watching this movie. This past week the same thing happened. My family was watching movies and normally I would sit and enjoy it too but I didn't, I went to my room and picked up my bible. What joy is this when the Lord finally becomes more important than all the worldly things we have come to know and love. I am looking forward to more of this and less of the worldly things I have held on to for way too long.
Saturday, January 22, 2005
Monday, January 17, 2005
I use to watch her wear it well
Everything would shine wherever she would go
But looking at her now you'd never tell
Someone ran away with her innocence
A memory she can't get out of her head
I can only imagine what she's feeling
When she's praying
Kneeling at the edge of her bed
And she says take me away
And take me farther
Surround me now
And hold, hold, hold me like holy water
She wants someone to call her angel
Someone to put the light back in her eyes
She's looking through the faces
The unfamiliar places
She needs someone to hear her when she cries
And she says take me away
And take me farther
Surround me now
And hold, hold, hold me like holy water
She just needs a little help
To wash away the pain she's felt
She wants to feel the healing hands
Of someone who understands
And she says take me away
And take me farther
Surround me now
And hold, hold, hold me
And she says take me away
And take me farther
Surround me now
And hold, hold, hold me like holy water
lyrics written and sung by Big and Rich
I got the news this morning that my cousin, David went and pulled the trigger, literally. I know he hasn't had the best life in the world but he has had a much better life then most of us. His father passed away a few years ago, and I think his life fell apart. Truthfully, I would say it fell apart way before that seeing as he was an alcoholic. But his dad passing was a big hit to the family and drove him further away. When we got the call we assumed that he had been in a car accident because he frequently drank and drove.
As you can tell I am not sugar coating his life like people usually do when one dies. I can only say, how could he have done this? The way he did it was so very tragic. He sat in his father's chair while his daughter was in her room. She heard a bang and ran downstairs. How selfish he was. How totally cruel and insensitive he was. Caitlan will forever be scarred not only with her father's suicide but also with the image. What horror!
I can never and probably will never understand why one would be such a coward and purposefully leave life knowing that their family is the one that will find them. Caitlan is about 16 or 17, with her whole life ahead of her.
My family does not know Jesus and they don't want to hear about Him either. How can she get through this? Only through Jesus can she learn how to really deal with this horrible tragedy. Jesus has such therapy tactics as to heal within a day, something years of therapy could never do. I know this will take more than a day so don't think I am naive but I've experienced Jesus' power of healing and have been healed within a weekend of life long hurts.
David leaves two daughters, his common law wife, a mother, two sisters, a twin brother and eight nieces and nephews.
Please pray for them especially Caitlan.
Thursday, January 13, 2005
My professor, Dr. Clarence Duff, started the class by stating that we will have to do a commentary about one verse in the bible. And it would have to be 10-15 pages in length. Ok, ya, that scared me a bit and I thought twice about taking the course. And then, without warning we started talking about critiquing the bible. Knowing the context in which it was written and also how it was written. Then he started on prophecy and I was hooked. I didn't care about having to write a commentary anymore. It is totally worth going through this class even if that means I will be writing a commentary. I could only think of the experience and knowledge I will get from this class.
After the prof. talked about the commentary he briefly stated that he holds a bible study on prophecy at his house. I couldn't get that out of my head all class. I have never had the courage to speak to a prof. after class before, or at least not on the first day, but I had to know about the bible study group and then without question he invited me to his house for bible study on Fridays. One other student asked him after class about the group and he even offered me a ride.
I have never been this stoked to study, to dive right into scripture and discover God. I am on a high and I don't want to come down. On the drive home tonight, I knew that I am in the process of carrying out what God has in store for my life and I am so excited. I can't even explain how I felt/feel. To know you are doing God's will and that it will impact others is just awesome/amazing!!!
Tuesday, January 11, 2005
As soon as I walked into class and sat down, it started to go away. Praying beforehand was probably the biggest help but looking around and seeing that I wasn't the only person just out of high school attending this class was also a relief. I don't know why I get a little nervous when starting something new. I guess I am a bit insecure. That is the only thing I can come up with for caring about these things that really don't matter. I know I am answering God's call on my life or at least starting too, and that is all that should matter. So, why do I always let fear enter in?
After class I was getting together with a friend and I told her I would be right over. She said that I would probably start talking with some people and that she is expecting me later. I told her that couldn't happen. She said 'They are Christian, it is different. You will talk to people.' I told her that just because they are Christians doesn't mean they are going to be welcoming or that it would be any different than any other university out there. I find it sad that I actually not only thought it but said it aloud. In the end she was right and before the class had even started I had already talked with five people. One of the girls I talked with has 4 classes with me.
I really enjoyed class immensely. I know it is only the first day but I realize that this is what I have been waiting for and now it is finally here. I felt God's presence in the classroom, I felt Him pressing my heart. I am so interested in digging into the bible and getting to know Him so much more. And the fear that I felt is gone. I am looking forward to school tomorrow. I never thought I'd see the day that those words would come out of my mouth(fingers).
Friday, January 07, 2005
It's so weird how memories and feelings come back to you. For all who don't know, I hated high school. I felt like I didn't belong. Although I had a lot of friends I still felt alone and I'd much rather skip then be there. Walking through the cafeteria made me feel a little bit vulnerable today. Until, I got back to reality and realized hello I am 28 and these kids are kids. I looked around and although it was a totally different set up and time, nothing much had changed.
When Alyssa came down from her class, she looked so cute in her uniform. It was actually the first time I'd seen her in it. She had stepped out from English class. She thought she was in trouble, so when she saw that it was me, she seemed pretty happy. She did what I would have done, procrastinate. She tried to stay with me as long as she could, until I finally told her that she should get back to class. She doesn't like English. When I was her age I didn't like it either, but by the 11th grade I fell in love with it. I hope she does too.
One thing that was really weird to see was the school had cameras at every corner and throughout the hallways. We had to deal with peer pressure and drugs/alcohol. These kids have to deal with that plus violence, gangs, weapons, etc.. I am sure glad I didn't have to grow up as a teen in this day and age.
Wednesday, January 05, 2005
Kids really know how to hit the heart. All I could say in response was "I haven't found the right person yet". Which is true but at the same time I wonder, will I ever? A guy at work asked me out last week. What do I do? Act weird and avoid the whole situation. Why? It's not because I am not interested in getting to know him better. I don't know what is wrong with me.
Only yesterday did I realize that I don't want to be hurt again. My last two relationships 'damaged' me more than I had previously thought. God brought that to my attention a few weeks ago. Don't you love it when God does that? I know I still need healing. And I when the right guy comes along, I want to just know, just feel it. My best friend says I live in a fairy tale reality and that is not how things happen. I can't believe such a thing.
Why can't I have a William Wallace or a Joe Black look right at me and I at him as we pass in the street and it just is? I want to be ready for it, but I don't think that is possible. Maybe I am destined to be single forever 'cause sometimes it sure feels like it but, I can't lose hope that he is out there looking for me too. My fingers are crossed!!! Well, not really, I'm not into superstitions but you get my point, I hope!
Maybe what I want doesn't exist. All I want is a manly man, who is also sensitive, one who likes sports but loves me and God more. ;-). One who isn't afraid to get his hands dirty but also can clean up well. Someone with intellegence so that we can have conversations/friendly debates for hours. One who wants to rescue me but isn't afraid of me rescuing him sometimes too. One who loves kids, the outdoors, and relaxing inside too. One who prefers happiness and family time over money and material things. One who wants to grow old with me and when we are old, holds my hand as we walk down the street. Ok, maybe this is just a fairy tale but what else can a girl do but dream!
Tuesday, January 04, 2005
A voyaging ship was wrecked during a storm at sea and only two of the men on it were able to swim to a small, desert like island.
The two survivors, not knowing what else to do, agreed that they had no other recourse but to pray to God.
However, to find out whose prayer was more powerful, they agreed to divide the territory between them and stay on opposite sides of the island.
The first thing they prayed for was food.
The next morning, the first man saw a fruit-bearing tree on his side of the land, and he was able to eat its fruit. The other man's parcel of land remained barren.
After a week, the first man was lonely and he decided to pray for a wife. The next day, another ship was wrecked, and the only survivor was a woman who swam to his side of the land. On the other side of the island, there was nothing.
Soon the first man prayed for a house, clothes, more food. The next day, like magic, all of these were given to him. However, the second man still had nothing.
Finally, the first man prayed for a ship, so that he and his wife could leave the island. In the morning, he found a ship docked at his side of the island. The first man boarded the ship with his wife and decided to leave the second man on the island.
He considered the other man unworthy to receive God's blessings, since none of his prayers had been answered.
As the ship was about to leave, the first man heard a voice from heaven booming, "Why are you leaving your companion on the island?"
"My blessings are mine alone, since I was the one who prayed for them," the first man answered. "His prayers were all unanswered and so he does not deserve anything."
"You are mistaken!" the voice rebuked him. "He had only one prayer, which I answered. If not for that, you would not have received any of my blessings."
"Tell me," the first man asked the voice, "what did he pray for that I should owe him anything?"
"He prayed that all your prayers be answered."
For all we know, our blessings are not the fruits of our prayers alone, but those of another praying for us. With Love comes blessings.
Monday, January 03, 2005
-The Lord of the Rings: Return of the King (extended edition) watched twice.
-13 going on 30
-2 Fast 2 Furious
-The Bourne Identity
-The Bourne Supremacy
-Closer (seen at the theatre)
-The Phantom of the Opera (also seen at the theatre)
-The Santa Clause 2
-A Christmas Carol (2004)
-I don't know if this counts but Skye and I saw Mamma Mia at the Royal Alexandra theatre yesterday
Holy cow!! I think I'm in overload. This is a crazy list. Long and dynamic. The sad thing is, I probably forgot a couple.
Anyway, cheers to a new year and less movie watching, more studying!