Tuesday, June 29, 2004

The Notebook

I just arrived home after watching 'The Notebook' with Jaime. When the movie was over, we looked at each other and both said at the same time 'That was amazing!' It truly was. I can not think of a greater love story. And believe me, I have watched many movies about love. I can't even really explain the movie either, it is just something that you have to see. It is beautiful.

I cried for happiness and I cried for sorrow. As did Jaime. We both wondered if love like that actually exists any more. More than anything, I want this kind of love. The kind, it seems can only be found in a book, which was turned into a movie. Jaime said that her grandparents had the most amazing love. You could see it in them at all times. Her grandmother said that they had old soul. She also said that in order to have that kind of love you have to look for someone who has old soul. She said you will find it, and there are men out there that have it, you just have to look. Seriously, where are they, because I've been looking.

I have old soul. I want old soul. I pray for this kind of love. I know God answers prayers, I have testified about it. This is the one I truly want with all my heart. Is there someone with old soul out there? Is God waiting for the right time to bring him my way? I sure hope so. For you and for me. And for those that have found it, God bless you.

Thursday, June 24, 2004

Elementary School

The last day of school for Skye was today. She is going to a different school next year so I had to make an appearance in the school office to get her transfer papers. While I was in there I felt very weird. Do you remember when you were a kid and you had to go to the office. I never liked the office, even if it was to call home 'cause I was sick. I don't know, today all those feelings came back. I was talking to the secretary and I got so nervous. I did get everything I came for but it was too weird.

I remember the last day of school when I was in grade school. To us it seemed like the best day of the year with the exception of Christmas. We used to sing 'NO more pencils, no more books....'. YOU know the song and you are probably singing it as you read this. :-) We felt free, finally after having the same routine day in and day out. The only thing we missed were our friends. We used to write in notebooks to each other and pretend we were big kids, you know, getting signatures and writing nice things to each other like Have a great summer, or You have been such a great friend.... Well, as I approached Skye's class all the kids were crying. They were hugging the teacher and wouldn't let her go. There were about 10 or so, just crying. No one was singing, everyone was so sad to say goodbye. It was different. Skye was talking to her friend Adrian and getting his phone number to keep in touch over the summer, which I hope that she does. And as it was time to leave, she started to cry. I started to get teary. Wow, it was emotional. I felt silly having tears, but she did spend 3 years at the school and she was very upset about switching school. More upset then I ever thought she would be. As we walked out of the school. Skye seemed to know every teacher and they were all sad to see her go. She hugged each one and they had nothing but great comments to say about her. One teacher gave her a present for all her good work with Jacob (a mentally challenged child her age). She gives her all when he is around. It really makes me so proud to be her mom. Not only because of that but just because she is an inspiration. They say that kids look up to their parents, but she sure has taught me a lot too.

We left the school and I made her laugh and I promised her a McDonald's dinner. She'll be fine, and she'll meet new friends and she'll touch everyone she comes in contact with just like she did at her school. She was so worried about what if no one likes her at the new school. Truly, she has nothing to worry about. She is the greatest gift from God, even when she frustrates me. :-) Thank you Lord.

Monday, June 21, 2004

Great game tonight.

We had an awesome baseball game tonight. We mostly played in the rain and it went extra innings. We ended up winning 13-12. Woo Hoo!!

This weekend was nice. For my parents anniversary we took them to The Keg. Great dinner and great bill. Darcy actually was so very nice to pay for us all. It was a bit of a surprise but a nice one. Thank you Darcy.

For father's day we just had a nice dinner at home. Mom made it, so it wasn't actually from the kids. But I am getting tickets for my parents so see a show and hotel. They just haven't picked which one yet. My parents are getting ready to go to Atlantic City next week. My dad seems to be looking forward to it. Which is great because he doesn't seem to get excited about a lot of things these days.

Oh, and I updated my fotoblog if anyone is interested, here is the link. It just has some picks of my family at wonderland and a few from the wedding of Jen and Mark.

Thursday, June 17, 2004

Lost for words in a 'billion' word society.

I am so lost for words. I haven't written in the past two weeks as I normally have and it's because I seriously have no clue what to write about. I could tell you that I am a bit peeved at work because people who work really hard and deserve shifts and time off etc... are not getting it but the ones who are dishonest and are lazy get whatever they want. Or I could tell you that I'm planning a skydiving trip. And maybe, just maybe I might white water raft this year finally. Or that my parents 33rd wedding anniversary is on Saturday. Or that Skye met Robert Munsch - he came to her school because a kid from Skye's Gr. 4 class won a Story Contest. Or that I played baseball in the rain and loved every minute of it. Or that my sister got the house that they wanted and are moving in at the end of the month. Or that my niece is out of the hospital and that she seems to be improving. Or that going to a spinning class almost killed me but wow it was awesome. Or that my fitness evaluation is tomorrow. Or that, I don't know. Whatever, I don't know what's come over me but I am seriously not in the mood to write and if I sit at the computer, I end up leaving because I'm either bored with it or don't really have anything or know what to share.

Monday, June 14, 2004

What's up with that?! :-)

I don't know what it is but I must be going crazy or something. For the last couple of Sundays, as soon as I step into church I get super emotional. I will start singing or something and I have to fight really hard not to cry. What is up with that?

This Sunday, we arrived a little late but when we got there, church was in full swing. I mean, we didn't have a typical service, we had intercession. There were lines all over the church for people to be prayed over. It was awesome. But before anyone even started to pray over my children or me I got this overwhelming sensation, and I swear if I wasn't fighting, I would have bawled. Now, I don't think its a bad thing to cry, and believe me I do my share of it but every single time I walk into that place, I swear its crazy. :-)

Maybe the Lord is working on something within me. That is always good. And I don't have to understand everything. I don't want to understand it all. It gets me excited, just knowing the Spirit is moving. Woo Hoo!! And it also helps to know that maybe I am not that crazy. :-)

On another note, I have baseball in just 2 and a half hours. Yippee.

It is indeed, an exciting start of the week.

Sunday, June 13, 2004

Live like you were dying

He said I was in my early forties
With a lot of life before me
When a moment came and stopped me on a dime
And I spent most of the next days
Looking at the x-rays
Talking bout the options
And talking bout sweet time
I asked him when it sank
That this might really be the real end
How's it hit you when you get that kinda news?
Man what'd you do?

And he said
I went skydiving
I went rocky mountain climbing
I went 2.7 seconds on a bull named Fu Man Chu
And I loved deeper and I smoked sweeter
And I gave forgiveness I'd been denying
And he said some day I hope you get the chance
To live like you were dying.

He said I was finally the husband
That most of the time I wasn't
And I became a friend, a friend would like to have
And all of a sudden going fishing
Wasn't such an imposition
And I went three times that year I lost my dad
Well I finally read the good book
And I took a good long hard look
At what I'd do if I could do it all again

And then,
I went skydiving
I went rocky mountain climbing,
I went 2.7 seconds on a bull named Fu Man Chu
And I loved deeper and I smoked sweeter
And I gave forgiveness I'd been denying
And he said some day I hope you get the chance
To live like you were dying.

Like tomorrow was a gift and you got eternity to think about
What'd you do with it, what did you do with it
What did I do with it
What would I do with it?

I went rocky mountain climbing,
I went 2.7 seconds on a bull named Fu Man Chu
And then I loved deeper and I smoked sweeter
And I watched an eagle as it was flying
And he said some day I hope you get the chance
To live like you were dying.
To live like you were dying
To live like you were dying
To live like you were dying
To live like you were dying

Monday, June 07, 2004

Receiving communion.

Church was really good yesterday. Not only did my mother join me again but we participated in the communion. Just in case you didn't know, I grew up Catholic and the Eucharist is a blessed sacrament. You can only participate if you have had your first communion. A big celebration that occurs in the first grade for most. I have always enjoyed getting communion. I have come to appreciate it more now that I am older, not old, older :-). I have never participated in the ritual in a Christian community before. I have heard about it but never actually seen it being done. It was definitely an experience. Very different than my Catholic upbringing but it really touched me this morning. As I was receiving both the blood and body I shed tears. It was a very emotional service for me. I don't know why but so many times I held back some tears. Some times I couldn't.

On another note, my friend Nadine visited. I haven't seen her since the Easter weekend. We chatted it up pretty good, caught up with the going-ons in our life, went for dinner, watched a movie and ended the night pretty late. I know I said I would be getting proper sleep, but there are always exceptions and she definitely qualifies as one.

Baseball is tonight, and my kids are joining me in the outing. I am so looking forward to it.

Friday, June 04, 2004


The gym that I signed up for in September, which is right across the street from my work, opened on Tuesday. Thursday was the first chance that I had to check it out. Wow, its pretty impressive. Because there are so many fitness evaluations to be done, I couldn't get an appt. until June 18. So, that sucks a bit but I still got to work out. I got a BMI done. Holy, that was not impressive. But it is not a discouragement it is an encouragement to do that much better. I have some fitness goals and I can't wait to achieve them. I love working out. I really don't know why I haven't done it more often, I feel so good, and I sleep that much better.

My lifestyle change as of yesterday: eat better, get proper sleep, workout often, and seperate time for the Lord. I really want to start treating my body better seeing as the body is the temple of The Holy Spirit.


Today I am very tired. I worked over 13hrs yesterday and worked out. I haven't seen my family since Thursday morning, so I was very excited to pick Skye up from school. Tonight is going to be a chill and rest night. Skye's already picked out the movie that we are watching after dinner. Although she has changed her mind twice already. :-)

Tuesday, June 01, 2004

Great Quotes by Great Ladies!

I don't really have much to say tonight. Just a bit tired from working a split shift. While checking email I came across some good quotes. So, here they are:

Great Quotes by Great Ladies!

Inside me lives a skinny woman crying to get out.
But I can usually shut her up with cookies.


Inside every older person is a younger person -- wondering what the hell happened.-Cora Harvey Armstrong-


The hardest years in life are those between ten and seventy.

-Helen Hayes (at 73)-


I refuse to think of them as chin hairs. I think of them as stray eyebrows.

-Janette Barber-


Things are going to get a lot worse before they get worse.

-Lily Tomlin-


A male gynecologist is like an auto mechanic who never owned a car.

-Carrie Snow-


Laugh and the world laughs with you. Cry and you cry with your girlfriends.

-Laurie Kuslansky-


My second favorite household chore is ironing. My first being, hitting my head on the top bunk bed until I faint.

-Erma Bombeck-


Old age ain't no place for sissies.

-Bette Davis-


A man's got to do what a man's got to do. A woman must do what he can't.

-Rhonda Hansome-


The phrase "working mother" is redundant.

-Jane Sellman-


Every time I close the door on reality it comes in through the windows.

-Jennifer Unlimited-


Whatever women must do they must do twice as well as men to be thought half as good. Luckily, this is not difficult.

-Charlotte Whitton-


Thirty-five is when you finally get your head together and your body starts falling apart.

-Caryn Leschen-


I try to take one day at a time, but sometimes several days attack me at once.

-Jennifer Unlimited-


If you can't be a good example, then you'll just have to be a horrible warning.



When I was young, I was put in a school for retarded kids for two years before they realized I actually had a hearing loss. And they called ME slow!

-Kathy Buckley-


I'm not offended by all the dumb blonde jokes because I know I'm not dumb .. and I'm also not blonde.

-Dolly Parton-


If high heels were so wonderful, men would still be wearing them.

-Sue Grafton-


I'm not going to vacuum 'til Sears makes one you can ride on.

-Roseanne Barr-


When women are depressed they either eat or go shopping. Men invade another country.

-Elayne Boosler-


Behind every successful man is a surprised woman.

-Maryon Pearson-


In politics, if you want anything said, ask a man- if you want anything done, ask a woman.

-Margaret Thatcher-


I have yet to hear a man ask for advice on how to combine marriage and a career.

-Gloria Steinem-


I am a marvelous housekeeper. Every time I leave a man I keep his house.

-Zsa Zsa Gabor-


Nobody can make you feel inferior without your permission.

-Eleanor Roosevelt-