In church this morning as we were singing 'How great is our God', a little girl got up on stage and started doing sign language to the song. As I watched tears welled up in my eyes, tears of joy, tears of happiness, tears of awe. I can't say it was only because of this little girl, but just for the awesomeness in the Almightly. He really is Great! He just blows my mind day in and day out. And I know that all the words in the human dictionary could never even come close to describing how Magnificent our God truly is!
Another thing came to my mind while I tried to hold in my tears. This was, how come for the last little while I seem to shed tears at everything. Well not everything but more things than I would like to admit. I don't want you all to think I am this cry baby over here, because it isn't like that. But when I hear a testimony I cry, when I see people giving their life to Jesus I cry, when I am listening to a sermon I cry, when I tell someone a story about one of the above I cry, when I listen as someone pours out their heart to me I cry. I don't know why I do this, but it seems that I can't help myself. I don't think it is a bad thing either. I seem to cry for mostly joyful things, which is the best reason for crying anyway. But I seem to have an outpouring of compassion for the lost, the brokenhearted, the sick, the children, and sometimes I feel as though I can feel the Father's heart breaking when I see people rejecting the love He so desperately wants to pour into them.
I was wondering earlier this week, why God would call me to counsel when I would cry along side the one I am trying to help. But then I realized that just because He told me to get the degree in counselling doesn't mean I will be doing the traditional counselling job. I think for me, it is going to be my life. To have compassion for those in need and show them the most awesome thing anyone can show anyone, and that is Jesus!
Also in church while wondering about why I am so sensitive, I recalled that I had blogged once on how I had thought I was all out of tears. Isn't this kind of funny. To think such a thing and then to be overwhelmed with sensitivity. I am glad I have this gift. I call it a gift because not everyone has it. Not everyone can get emotionally stirred just by seeing someone give their life to Jesus, or to hear a story and feel what the person who is telling it is feeling. I would call that a gift. Thank you Jesus, for making me a blubbering, crying, silly, sensitive person.
Sunday, November 20, 2005
Monday, November 14, 2005
Finding peace in the midst of a storm.
In the midst of any storm, the Lord always proves to be great. He is always there and never tries to flee. He is the one we can count on, the one we can trust and the one who loves us.
I found out not long ago that someone close to me has been having problems in her marriage. But through everything that she has and is going through the Lord is the one who comforts, provides and strengthens her daily. In this horrible trial she has grown deeper in her relationship with the Lord and I see it. She is an awesome lady and God will bless her because she is the one standing strong and honouring God.
I pray for her family, I pray that they will find strength and comfort in the Lord. That they will see the light at the end of the tunnel and that the hope that is in Christ shines through in them. I pray that no matter what life throws at them that it will bounce right off them. I pray they will find peace and contentment in any situation that they are in. And that they will seek the Lord daily, and find wisdom in His Word. In Jesus' name I pray. Amen.
I found out not long ago that someone close to me has been having problems in her marriage. But through everything that she has and is going through the Lord is the one who comforts, provides and strengthens her daily. In this horrible trial she has grown deeper in her relationship with the Lord and I see it. She is an awesome lady and God will bless her because she is the one standing strong and honouring God.
I pray for her family, I pray that they will find strength and comfort in the Lord. That they will see the light at the end of the tunnel and that the hope that is in Christ shines through in them. I pray that no matter what life throws at them that it will bounce right off them. I pray they will find peace and contentment in any situation that they are in. And that they will seek the Lord daily, and find wisdom in His Word. In Jesus' name I pray. Amen.
Sunday, November 06, 2005
Early Christian Church Unearthed
By Cynthia Johnston
MEGIDDO PRISON, Israel (Reuters) - In a maximum-security jail just down the road from Armageddon, Israeli archaeologists have unearthed what they believe is the oldest church discovered in the land where Jesus was born.
"This is one of the most important finds of early Christianity," archaeologist Yardena Alexandre of the Israel Antiquities told journalists on a tour of the excavation on Sunday.
Remains of the church, which archaeologists date to the mid-third to early-fourth century, were found during a dig for possible artifacts before the planned construction of a new prison wing.
The ruins of the church include a mosaic tile floor with inscriptions in ancient Greek containing a reference to "The God Jesus Christ" and could shed light on early Christian practices.
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You know...
You know you are tired when: your alarm clock goes off at 9am and you don't actually hear it until 10:54am.
Wednesday, November 02, 2005
Defending the Faith!
Do you know what I am finding lately? I seem to have to defend my faith to so many people, who by the way, approach me and then when I speak truth it is like a button goes off in them and they go into attack mode. I try to stay calm, cool and collected while I take my stance but I know I am not perfect and I know it is only by love that they will see Jesus in me. I just don't get why someone brings up the subject just to try to rouse me to anger. I love Jesus and I will stand by His Word no matter who it may offend. The truth is the truth and it is Jesus himself who says he is the truth "I am the way, the truth and the life: no man cometh unto the Father, but by me." (John 14:6) I just pray I do it in a way that will plant seeds and change hearts.
On the flipside, I have others approach me and for some reason or another they just know that there is something different in me and want to know more about it. Which of course opens the door of discussion.
I guess I just have to always remember that whenever God wants to do something amazing re: save souls, the devil is always trying to stop it from happening. I see both, but God is the one who always comes out on top and the devil already knows he is defeated. Amen to that!
On the flipside, I have others approach me and for some reason or another they just know that there is something different in me and want to know more about it. Which of course opens the door of discussion.
I guess I just have to always remember that whenever God wants to do something amazing re: save souls, the devil is always trying to stop it from happening. I see both, but God is the one who always comes out on top and the devil already knows he is defeated. Amen to that!
Tuesday, November 01, 2005
I'm Back!
Wow, it has been almost three months since I was last on my own blog. I was missing writing in here and last night I found myself redecorating it. This would be the third time that I have switched the face of this blog. I hope you all like it.
I have found that over the past little while I have been struggling with some issues and I realized it is always good to talk with someone or express my feelings in some way. This is what brought me back to this little corner on the web. Even though I can be quite vague at times, this blog has helped me to express/collect/examine/re-examine my thoughts. This is what I have been lacking - lately I have been holding a lot in and I know that it is not only unwise but also unhealthy for me. And so I have returned.
So if you dare, I invite you to continue share my journey through life for we are all here for a purpose and God will surely direct our path to get us there.
I have found that over the past little while I have been struggling with some issues and I realized it is always good to talk with someone or express my feelings in some way. This is what brought me back to this little corner on the web. Even though I can be quite vague at times, this blog has helped me to express/collect/examine/re-examine my thoughts. This is what I have been lacking - lately I have been holding a lot in and I know that it is not only unwise but also unhealthy for me. And so I have returned.
So if you dare, I invite you to continue share my journey through life for we are all here for a purpose and God will surely direct our path to get us there.
Wednesday, August 10, 2005
Patience, I'm trying to have it!
I realize that I haven't been consistent with my blog in more then half a year. And I know that probably nobody comes to this corner of the web anymore but that is alright with me. I would have probably given up on my blog too! ;-)
Anyway, lots has been going on in the world or better yet, mind of Angela. The thing that really stands out the most is that God clearly and distinctly told me something way back in January and to make it totally clear that it was His voice that I heard, I asked for confirmation, not once but twice. Both times He confirmed it! Now I should be very happy considering what was said but somehow little by little doubt tends to creep back in.
I told a good friend about this whole thing and he said that I just have to wait on God. He also said that most people have to wonder about this particular thing for what seems like forever. I am lucky to know the answer. The problem is here: Is it better to know which way your life is going and have no clue when it will happen? Or is it just easier to not know?
I used to think that knowing is better but since that day in January I haven't stopped obsessing over it and sometimes I wish that I didn't know although I am thankful that I do. I know this is confusing. It's confusing for me too!
I guess it is better to know. And maybe part of the lesson I need to learn is just to have patience and wait on God. Sometimes that seems so hard, though. I just want it to happen now. I sound like a little kid. But it is so true. I have prayed about this particular thing for so long, He finally gives me an answer, and now I have to wait longer. Grrrrrr..... :-)
I know I am in the waiting stage for a few things and because I know this I should not be expecting anything to happen right now, but I so badly want it. It is frustrating but it is also a relief. I just think about how long those in the bible had to wait on things. Take Moses for example: 40yrs in palace, 40yrs preparing, 40yrs in wilderness. He had 40yrs of preparation. Who said waiting is fun?! Holy moly! And David who knew he was to become king when he was just 18yrs old but had to wait until he was thirty to fully receive it. I know, it is all about God's timing. And His timing is the best, right and only timing. Do I have the patience as one like Moses or David? I can't even begin to compare myself to either of these two individuals, it is incomprehensible. I know I don't have tons of patience. I know I can be impulsive and crazy sometimes and I know that I have to wait on God. I just pray that I can. I have too! I want too!!
Anyway, lots has been going on in the world or better yet, mind of Angela. The thing that really stands out the most is that God clearly and distinctly told me something way back in January and to make it totally clear that it was His voice that I heard, I asked for confirmation, not once but twice. Both times He confirmed it! Now I should be very happy considering what was said but somehow little by little doubt tends to creep back in.
I told a good friend about this whole thing and he said that I just have to wait on God. He also said that most people have to wonder about this particular thing for what seems like forever. I am lucky to know the answer. The problem is here: Is it better to know which way your life is going and have no clue when it will happen? Or is it just easier to not know?
I used to think that knowing is better but since that day in January I haven't stopped obsessing over it and sometimes I wish that I didn't know although I am thankful that I do. I know this is confusing. It's confusing for me too!
I guess it is better to know. And maybe part of the lesson I need to learn is just to have patience and wait on God. Sometimes that seems so hard, though. I just want it to happen now. I sound like a little kid. But it is so true. I have prayed about this particular thing for so long, He finally gives me an answer, and now I have to wait longer. Grrrrrr..... :-)
I know I am in the waiting stage for a few things and because I know this I should not be expecting anything to happen right now, but I so badly want it. It is frustrating but it is also a relief. I just think about how long those in the bible had to wait on things. Take Moses for example: 40yrs in palace, 40yrs preparing, 40yrs in wilderness. He had 40yrs of preparation. Who said waiting is fun?! Holy moly! And David who knew he was to become king when he was just 18yrs old but had to wait until he was thirty to fully receive it. I know, it is all about God's timing. And His timing is the best, right and only timing. Do I have the patience as one like Moses or David? I can't even begin to compare myself to either of these two individuals, it is incomprehensible. I know I don't have tons of patience. I know I can be impulsive and crazy sometimes and I know that I have to wait on God. I just pray that I can. I have too! I want too!!
Sunday, July 03, 2005
Frustrated at the church!
Lots has happened since I last wrote in here. It's so weird how you just forget to write and then when you remember you don't know where to begin.
I finished my summer classes two weeks ago. Everything went really well. I wasn't as fond as summer school though mostly because they cram so many lessons into such a short time.
I started a new job last week. I went back into my old field, which I was so reluctant to do but it pays relatively well and it gives me time with my children.
The same-sex bill seems to be slipping right in to law with the help of those lovely liberals, ndps, and bloc-quebecuois(?). I wonder how long it is going to take before all of our Canadian morals goes down the tube. I really wished that more people would have stood up for religious freedom but I guess not enough care about it. The sad thing was that there were very few Christian leaders standing up. It seems as though the Moslems, Sikhs, and Catholics care more for the rights and freedoms of generations to come.
I keep hearing that there are two ways for a revival to come into this nation: we get on our knees and pray or prosecution. It seems as though it is going to be the latter of the two. It takes only a few to pray, but we are too caught up in our own lives to care about anything else. I ask: What is wrong with the church today? We are all sleeping and we like to stay in our comfort zone.
Let me ask you this: When a homosexual couple comes into your church to get married what are you going to do? Break the law and stand up for Christ or marry because the law says so? Interesting thing to add to this little 'equation': what about when you stand the chance of losing your charitable status? The sad thing is I believe more would follow the law then Christ. I guess more of us are really goat instead of sheep!
I finished my summer classes two weeks ago. Everything went really well. I wasn't as fond as summer school though mostly because they cram so many lessons into such a short time.
I started a new job last week. I went back into my old field, which I was so reluctant to do but it pays relatively well and it gives me time with my children.
The same-sex bill seems to be slipping right in to law with the help of those lovely liberals, ndps, and bloc-quebecuois(?). I wonder how long it is going to take before all of our Canadian morals goes down the tube. I really wished that more people would have stood up for religious freedom but I guess not enough care about it. The sad thing was that there were very few Christian leaders standing up. It seems as though the Moslems, Sikhs, and Catholics care more for the rights and freedoms of generations to come.
I keep hearing that there are two ways for a revival to come into this nation: we get on our knees and pray or prosecution. It seems as though it is going to be the latter of the two. It takes only a few to pray, but we are too caught up in our own lives to care about anything else. I ask: What is wrong with the church today? We are all sleeping and we like to stay in our comfort zone.
Let me ask you this: When a homosexual couple comes into your church to get married what are you going to do? Break the law and stand up for Christ or marry because the law says so? Interesting thing to add to this little 'equation': what about when you stand the chance of losing your charitable status? The sad thing is I believe more would follow the law then Christ. I guess more of us are really goat instead of sheep!
Tuesday, June 14, 2005
Father's Love Letter: The Cry of a Father's Heart from Genesis to Revelation
My child...
You may not know Me, but I know everything about you...Psalms 139:1
I know when you sit down and when you rise up...Psalm 139:2
I am familiar with all your ways...Psalm 139:3
Even the very hairs on you head are numbered...Matthew 10:29-31
For you were made in My image...Genesis 1:27
In Me you live and move and have your being...Acts 17:28
For you are My offspring...Acts 17:28
I knew you even before you were conceived...Jeremiah 1:4-5
I chose you when I planned creation...Ephesians 1:11-12
You were not a mistake, for all your days are written in My book...Psalm 139:15-16
I determined the exact time of your birth and where you would live...Acts 17:26
You are fearfully and wonderfully made...Psalm 139:14
I knit you together in your mother's womb...Psalm 139:13
And brought you forth on the day you were born...Psalm 71:6
I have been misrepresented by those who don't know Me...John 8:41-44
I am not distant and angry, but am the complete expression of love...1 John 4:16
And it is My desire to lavish My love on you... 1 John 3:1
Simply because you are My child and I am your father...1 John 3:1
I offer you more than your earthly father every could...Matthew 7:11
For I am the perfect father...Matthew 5:48
Every good gift that you receive comes from My hand...James 1:17
For I am your provider, and I meet all your needs...Matthew 6:31-33
My plan for your future has always been filled with hope...Jeremiah 29:11
Because I love you with an everlasting love...Jeremiah 31:3
My thoughts toward you are countless as the sand on the seashore...Psalm 139:17-18
And I rejoice over you with singing...Zephaniah 3:17
I will never stop doing good to you...Jeremiah...32:40
For you are My treasured possession...Exodus 19:5
I desire to establish you with all My heart and all My soul...Jeremiah 32:41
And I want to show you great and marvelous things...Jeremiah 33:3
If you seek Me with all your heart, you will find Me...Deuteronomy 4:29
Delight in Me, and I will give you the desires of your heart...Psalm 37:4
For it is I who gave you those desires...Philippians 2:13
I am able to do more for you than you could possibly imagine...Ephesians 3:20
For I am your greatest encourager...2 Thessalonians 2:16-17
I am also the Father who comforts you in all your troubles...2 Corinthians 1:3-4
When you are brokenhearted, I am close to you...Psalm 34:18
As a shepherd carries a lamb, I have carried you close to My heart...Isaiah 40:11
One day I will wipe away every tear from your eyes...Revelations 21:3-4
And I'll take away all the pain you have suffered on this earth...Revelation 21:3-4
I am you Father, and I love you even as I love My son, Jesus...John 17:23
For in Jesus, My love for you is revealed...John 17:26
He is the exact representation of My being...Hebrews 1:3
He came to demonstrate that I am for you, not against you...Romans 8:31
And to tell you that I am not counting your sins...2 Corinthians 5:18-19
His death was the ultimate expression of My love for you...1 John 4:10
I gave up everything I loved that I might gain your love...Romans 8:31-32
If you receive the gift of My Son, Jesus, you receive me...1 John 2:23
And nothing will ever separate you from My love again...Romans 8:38-39
Come home, and I'll throw the biggest party heaven has ever seen...Luke 15:7
I have always been Father and will always be Father...Ephesians 3:14-15
My question is...Will you be My child?...John 1:12-13
I am waiting for you...Luke 15:11-32
Love, Your Dad, Almighty God
Taken from Experiencing Father's Embrace, by Jack Frost
'Father's Love Letter used by permission Father Heart Communications Copyright 1999-2005 www.FathersLoveLetter.com'
You may not know Me, but I know everything about you...Psalms 139:1
I know when you sit down and when you rise up...Psalm 139:2
I am familiar with all your ways...Psalm 139:3
Even the very hairs on you head are numbered...Matthew 10:29-31
For you were made in My image...Genesis 1:27
In Me you live and move and have your being...Acts 17:28
For you are My offspring...Acts 17:28
I knew you even before you were conceived...Jeremiah 1:4-5
I chose you when I planned creation...Ephesians 1:11-12
You were not a mistake, for all your days are written in My book...Psalm 139:15-16
I determined the exact time of your birth and where you would live...Acts 17:26
You are fearfully and wonderfully made...Psalm 139:14
I knit you together in your mother's womb...Psalm 139:13
And brought you forth on the day you were born...Psalm 71:6
I have been misrepresented by those who don't know Me...John 8:41-44
I am not distant and angry, but am the complete expression of love...1 John 4:16
And it is My desire to lavish My love on you... 1 John 3:1
Simply because you are My child and I am your father...1 John 3:1
I offer you more than your earthly father every could...Matthew 7:11
For I am the perfect father...Matthew 5:48
Every good gift that you receive comes from My hand...James 1:17
For I am your provider, and I meet all your needs...Matthew 6:31-33
My plan for your future has always been filled with hope...Jeremiah 29:11
Because I love you with an everlasting love...Jeremiah 31:3
My thoughts toward you are countless as the sand on the seashore...Psalm 139:17-18
And I rejoice over you with singing...Zephaniah 3:17
I will never stop doing good to you...Jeremiah...32:40
For you are My treasured possession...Exodus 19:5
I desire to establish you with all My heart and all My soul...Jeremiah 32:41
And I want to show you great and marvelous things...Jeremiah 33:3
If you seek Me with all your heart, you will find Me...Deuteronomy 4:29
Delight in Me, and I will give you the desires of your heart...Psalm 37:4
For it is I who gave you those desires...Philippians 2:13
I am able to do more for you than you could possibly imagine...Ephesians 3:20
For I am your greatest encourager...2 Thessalonians 2:16-17
I am also the Father who comforts you in all your troubles...2 Corinthians 1:3-4
When you are brokenhearted, I am close to you...Psalm 34:18
As a shepherd carries a lamb, I have carried you close to My heart...Isaiah 40:11
One day I will wipe away every tear from your eyes...Revelations 21:3-4
And I'll take away all the pain you have suffered on this earth...Revelation 21:3-4
I am you Father, and I love you even as I love My son, Jesus...John 17:23
For in Jesus, My love for you is revealed...John 17:26
He is the exact representation of My being...Hebrews 1:3
He came to demonstrate that I am for you, not against you...Romans 8:31
And to tell you that I am not counting your sins...2 Corinthians 5:18-19
His death was the ultimate expression of My love for you...1 John 4:10
I gave up everything I loved that I might gain your love...Romans 8:31-32
If you receive the gift of My Son, Jesus, you receive me...1 John 2:23
And nothing will ever separate you from My love again...Romans 8:38-39
Come home, and I'll throw the biggest party heaven has ever seen...Luke 15:7
I have always been Father and will always be Father...Ephesians 3:14-15
My question is...Will you be My child?...John 1:12-13
I am waiting for you...Luke 15:11-32
Love, Your Dad, Almighty God
Taken from Experiencing Father's Embrace, by Jack Frost
'Father's Love Letter used by permission Father Heart Communications Copyright 1999-2005 www.FathersLoveLetter.com'
Thursday, June 09, 2005
My Friend?
My friend, I stand in the judgment now
And feel that you're to blame somehow;
On earth, I walked with you day by day
And never did you point the way.
You knew the Lord in Truth and Glory,
But never did you tell the story;
My knowledge then was very dim;
You could have led me safe to Him.
Though we lived together on the earth,
You never told me of the second birth;
And now I stand the day condemned,
Because you failed to mention Him.
You taught me many things, that's true;
I called you friend and trusted you;
But now I learn the truth too late,
You could have kept me from this fate.
We walked by day and talked by night,
And yet you showed me not the light;
You let me live, and love, and die,
You knew I'd never live on high.
Yes, I called you "friend" in life,
And trusted you through joy and strife;
And yet, on coming to the end,
I cannot now call you "my friend".
Author unknown
And feel that you're to blame somehow;
On earth, I walked with you day by day
And never did you point the way.
You knew the Lord in Truth and Glory,
But never did you tell the story;
My knowledge then was very dim;
You could have led me safe to Him.
Though we lived together on the earth,
You never told me of the second birth;
And now I stand the day condemned,
Because you failed to mention Him.
You taught me many things, that's true;
I called you friend and trusted you;
But now I learn the truth too late,
You could have kept me from this fate.
We walked by day and talked by night,
And yet you showed me not the light;
You let me live, and love, and die,
You knew I'd never live on high.
Yes, I called you "friend" in life,
And trusted you through joy and strife;
And yet, on coming to the end,
I cannot now call you "my friend".
Author unknown
Saturday, June 04, 2005
2cd NightWatch Service
Last night was my second nightwatch service. We worshipped and prayed all night long. This time it was in a spanish church. It was a little bit different - worshipping to both spanish and english music. Although I could not understand the music, I found it very soothing. Spanish is just a beautiful language all together. All and all it was good.
There was a good turn out too. There is something special that happens when a bunch of people come together and pray about the same thing. I believe God is going to do something mighty in this land. Wow, if you haven't tried to stay up all night to pray, I suggest that you do. You will be blown away by the awesomeness that is God.
Well, have a great weekend. Enjoy the weather, who knows how long it will last. This is Canada you know! :-)
There was a good turn out too. There is something special that happens when a bunch of people come together and pray about the same thing. I believe God is going to do something mighty in this land. Wow, if you haven't tried to stay up all night to pray, I suggest that you do. You will be blown away by the awesomeness that is God.
Well, have a great weekend. Enjoy the weather, who knows how long it will last. This is Canada you know! :-)
Wednesday, May 25, 2005
The long weekend.
Well, I had a busy long weekend. It had its both ups and downs. It started off with me going all the way to my bible study to find out that is was cancelled. While I waited in the car, my mom calls and tells me to get home as soon as the study is over. I knew right away what she meant by that. My aunt who had been in the hospital had died. I headed home to find my sister, Darcy and the new baby Marcus there. So, getting to hold him for a little while made things much better.
On Saturday I had a bbq with a bunch of friends. It turned out really great. Everyone seemed to have a great time and the weather was perfect. We celebrated five of our birthdays - Richard, Hernan, Eric, Eugenie and Angela (that's me :-). My friend Jaime made the cake and it was awesome. We ended up having a water balloon fight and then the hose came out. It felt good to be in the company of great people.
On Sunday I had to drive up to North Bay for my aunt Marie's funeral. It was a nice little service in a united church. Being in a united church felt very weird. The things the pastor was saying was misleading and I wanted to stand up and tell her to tell the truth but I didn't. It was a funeral and that is no way to show love. But I was egging inside. After the funeral we headed to my cousins house. I saw some family I haven't seen in quite awhile. I wish that it didn't always have to take something bad to bring everyone together.
On Monday Skye and I headed down to Queen's Park for the Defend Marriage Rally. That was really cool. There were over 5000 people there. It was suppose to rain all afternoon but as the rally continued on the clouds parted, the sun shone through and the sky became this beautiful blue. Isn't it great to have God on our side? There were about 22 speakers from around Canada from different denominations, there were also Moslems and Sikhs. I find it quite weird that we are classed as inferior to the Moslems and yet they join with us for this cause. I guess I shouldn't be that surprised the bible talks about religions joining together. Something we as Christians would never have even thought could be possible and slowly it is all coming together. But anyway, that is a totally different topic.
I hope you all had a great weekend. God bless you!
On Saturday I had a bbq with a bunch of friends. It turned out really great. Everyone seemed to have a great time and the weather was perfect. We celebrated five of our birthdays - Richard, Hernan, Eric, Eugenie and Angela (that's me :-). My friend Jaime made the cake and it was awesome. We ended up having a water balloon fight and then the hose came out. It felt good to be in the company of great people.
On Sunday I had to drive up to North Bay for my aunt Marie's funeral. It was a nice little service in a united church. Being in a united church felt very weird. The things the pastor was saying was misleading and I wanted to stand up and tell her to tell the truth but I didn't. It was a funeral and that is no way to show love. But I was egging inside. After the funeral we headed to my cousins house. I saw some family I haven't seen in quite awhile. I wish that it didn't always have to take something bad to bring everyone together.
On Monday Skye and I headed down to Queen's Park for the Defend Marriage Rally. That was really cool. There were over 5000 people there. It was suppose to rain all afternoon but as the rally continued on the clouds parted, the sun shone through and the sky became this beautiful blue. Isn't it great to have God on our side? There were about 22 speakers from around Canada from different denominations, there were also Moslems and Sikhs. I find it quite weird that we are classed as inferior to the Moslems and yet they join with us for this cause. I guess I shouldn't be that surprised the bible talks about religions joining together. Something we as Christians would never have even thought could be possible and slowly it is all coming together. But anyway, that is a totally different topic.
I hope you all had a great weekend. God bless you!
Monday, May 16, 2005
Hold on fast, and seek diligently
I have finished my first week of the summer semester at school. I have a little bit more counselling classes so it will definitely be a bit of a change. I have loved theology so much that it really is all I have been wanting to do. I was thinking about changing my major to theology but I now that way back in August the Lord called me to counselling. So that is what I am going to do.
I do thank the Lord for giving me the desire to want to pick up His Word day in and day out. He has taught me so much in this little bit of time that it only could be accredited to Him. I am an official work in progress and I really can not wait for each day to come so that I can say 'More Lord'.
When I have been counselling people, it has never felt like work but when I am in class I get this overwhelming feeling of doubt. I know it is Satan pushing me back. I know that I have to push forward. Because I've been studying the Word more, I have a little bit better understanding of the spiritual battle that is going on around us and my only defense is the Word. I pray to be grounded in the Word Lord and fight back just as Jesus did in the desert.
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I have noticed a common occurrence that happens to us. We feel the Lord, we are hungry for the Word, we pray diligently and then something seems to happen that we lose the 'feeling', we feel distant from the Lord and we wonder what happened. The first thing that we should ask ourselves is 'Did we stop praying?' and 'Did we stop reading the Word?'. We get so focused on the things that are happening in front of us and we begin to lose sight of the Lord. God never is the one to leave it is always us who turn our eye onto something else. Our relationship with Jesus is an every day journey. It starts when we ask Jesus into our hearts and never finishes, not even when we close our eyes to sleep.
Heavenly Father, I ask that You renew our minds and our hearts for you. That we may walk with You and drown in your Spirit. Lord, I pray that everyone would seek You because when they do they will find you right there waiting. Father I know that Your promises are true and You will never fail us. I ask that everyone would lay down their troubles at Your feet and pick up their cross and follow You. You never promised an easy life, actually you said the opposite. So I pray that we look to heaven and not to the world for our reward. And when we find we are being tempted and in despair that we put our trust in You and diligently seek You. Your Word says "Submit to God, Resist the devil, and He will flee from you". Lord, I pray that you will convict all of us of our sins and draw all of us nearer to you. First we must submit and then we resist the devil. It is not the other way around. We need to lay down our life for You. Help us to see this and not be afraid but rejoice and be glad for even the apostles found joy in their sufferings. I ask that we all pray this "Let the words of my mouth and the meditation of my heart be acceptable in Your sight O' Lord, my strength and my redeemer". In Jesus' name I pray. Amen
I do thank the Lord for giving me the desire to want to pick up His Word day in and day out. He has taught me so much in this little bit of time that it only could be accredited to Him. I am an official work in progress and I really can not wait for each day to come so that I can say 'More Lord'.
When I have been counselling people, it has never felt like work but when I am in class I get this overwhelming feeling of doubt. I know it is Satan pushing me back. I know that I have to push forward. Because I've been studying the Word more, I have a little bit better understanding of the spiritual battle that is going on around us and my only defense is the Word. I pray to be grounded in the Word Lord and fight back just as Jesus did in the desert.
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I have noticed a common occurrence that happens to us. We feel the Lord, we are hungry for the Word, we pray diligently and then something seems to happen that we lose the 'feeling', we feel distant from the Lord and we wonder what happened. The first thing that we should ask ourselves is 'Did we stop praying?' and 'Did we stop reading the Word?'. We get so focused on the things that are happening in front of us and we begin to lose sight of the Lord. God never is the one to leave it is always us who turn our eye onto something else. Our relationship with Jesus is an every day journey. It starts when we ask Jesus into our hearts and never finishes, not even when we close our eyes to sleep.
Heavenly Father, I ask that You renew our minds and our hearts for you. That we may walk with You and drown in your Spirit. Lord, I pray that everyone would seek You because when they do they will find you right there waiting. Father I know that Your promises are true and You will never fail us. I ask that everyone would lay down their troubles at Your feet and pick up their cross and follow You. You never promised an easy life, actually you said the opposite. So I pray that we look to heaven and not to the world for our reward. And when we find we are being tempted and in despair that we put our trust in You and diligently seek You. Your Word says "Submit to God, Resist the devil, and He will flee from you". Lord, I pray that you will convict all of us of our sins and draw all of us nearer to you. First we must submit and then we resist the devil. It is not the other way around. We need to lay down our life for You. Help us to see this and not be afraid but rejoice and be glad for even the apostles found joy in their sufferings. I ask that we all pray this "Let the words of my mouth and the meditation of my heart be acceptable in Your sight O' Lord, my strength and my redeemer". In Jesus' name I pray. Amen
Tuesday, May 10, 2005
Surgery!
My son had day surgery yesterday and I was a bit skeptical about the whole thing. His father really was pushing for it and in the end he won. I can't say 'won' as it wasn't a contest or anything but in the end Matthew had surgery.
I prayed for God's hand to be on the surgeon and for Matthew to recover quickly. Well, within two hours of having the surgery, Matthew was himself again. All day you would not have even thought that he had surgery.
God really is amazing and He sends His grace upon us. I am thankful for His presence in our lives and I am thankful for the blessings and the trials.
I prayed for God's hand to be on the surgeon and for Matthew to recover quickly. Well, within two hours of having the surgery, Matthew was himself again. All day you would not have even thought that he had surgery.
God really is amazing and He sends His grace upon us. I am thankful for His presence in our lives and I am thankful for the blessings and the trials.
Saturday, May 07, 2005
Midnight Watch Prayer Meeting.
Last night, or moreso this morning at 12am, I went to my first Midnight Watch Prayer meeting. This was held at a Brazilian church and we prayed and worshipped until 6am. The worship was astounding. God was in the midst. It really was an awesome experience. I have never stayed up all night to pray before but I knew that if I could do it for the world (i.e. the movie marathon) then I could most certainly do it for God.
I learned that this was their second meeting of nine to pray over Canada. We prayed for leadership inside and outside of the church, this and next generations, healing in the land. We repented for generational sin and deliverance. We praised God and had a time of thanksgiving.
This really was quite the experience. Their next meeting is on June 3rd and I most certainly plan on being there. If anyone is interested in finding out more about this, contact Canada in Prayer. It is a group of intercessors who gather together for a common purpose of prayer throughout Canada on the first Friday of every month. So while you are praying in Toronto, others are grouped together in Vancouver praying for the same things.
I am glad that God brought me to church last night. He rejuvenated everyone who was there, especially the musicians who played all night long without a break. Thank God for his anointing and for His fresh flow of grace raining down on us.
I learned that this was their second meeting of nine to pray over Canada. We prayed for leadership inside and outside of the church, this and next generations, healing in the land. We repented for generational sin and deliverance. We praised God and had a time of thanksgiving.
This really was quite the experience. Their next meeting is on June 3rd and I most certainly plan on being there. If anyone is interested in finding out more about this, contact Canada in Prayer. It is a group of intercessors who gather together for a common purpose of prayer throughout Canada on the first Friday of every month. So while you are praying in Toronto, others are grouped together in Vancouver praying for the same things.
I am glad that God brought me to church last night. He rejuvenated everyone who was there, especially the musicians who played all night long without a break. Thank God for his anointing and for His fresh flow of grace raining down on us.
Friday, May 06, 2005
Billy's Dream.
A tear rolled down my cheek as I read this this morning. A very touching story that I had to share.
In Phoenix, Arizona, a 26-year-old mother stared down at her 6 year old son, who was dying of terminal leukemia. Although her heart was filled with sadness, she also had a strong feeling of determination. Like any parent, she wanted her son to grow up and fulfill all his dreams. Now that was no longer possible.. The leukemia would see to that. But she still wanted her son's dreams to come true. She took her son's hand and asked, "Billy, did you ever think about what you wanted to be once you grew up? Did you ever dream and wish what you would do with your life?" Mommy, "I always wanted to be a fireman when I grew up." Mom smiled back and said, "Let's see if we can make your wish come true."
Later that day she went to her local fire department in Phoenix, Arizona, where she met Fireman Bob, who had a heart as big as Phoenix. She explained her son's final wish and asked if it might be possible to give her six year old son a ride around the block on a fire engine. Fireman Bob said, "Look, we can do better than that. If you'll have your son ready at seven o'clock Wednesday morning, we'll make him an honorary fireman for the whole day. He can come down to the fire station, eat with us, go out on all the fire calls, the whole nine yards! And if you'll give us ! his sizes, we'll get a real fire uniform for him, with a real fire hat-not a toy one-with the emblem of the Phoenix Fire Department on it, a yellow slicker like we wear and rubber boots. They're all manufactured right here in Phoenix, so we can get them fast."
Three days later Fireman Bob picked up Billy, dressed him in his fire uniform and escorted him from his hospital bed to the waiting hook and ladder truck. Billy got to sit on the back of the truck and help steer it back to the fire station. He was in heaven. There were three fire calls in Phoenix that day and Billy got to go out on all three calls. He rode in the different fire engines, the paramedic's van, and even the fire chief's car. He was also videotaped for the local news program.
Having his dream come true, with all the love and attention that was lavished upon him, so deeply touched Billy that he lived three months longer than any doctor thought possible.
One night all of his vital signs began to drop dramatically and the head nurse, who believed in the hospice concept that no one should die alone, began to call the family members to the hospital. Then she remembered the day Billy had spent as a fireman, so she called the Fire Chief and asked if it would be possible to send a fireman in uniform to the hospital to be with Billy as he made his transition. The chief replied, "We can do better than that. We'll be there in five minutes. Will you please do me a favor? When you hear the sirens screaming and see the lights flashing, will you announce over the PA system that there is not a fire? It's just the fire department coming to see one of its finest members one more time. And will you open the window to his room?
About five minutes later a hook and ladder truck arrived at the hospital and extended its ladder up to Billy's third floor open window 16 firefighters climbed up the ladder into Billy's room. With his mother's permission, they hugged him and held him and told him how much they loved him.
With his dying breath, Billy looked up at the fire chief and said, "Chief, am I really a fireman now?" "Billy, you are, and the Head Chief, Jesus, is holding your hand," the chief said. With those words, Billy smiled and said, "I know, He's been holding my hand all day, and the angels have been singing.." He closed his eyes one last time.
Stop telling God how big your storm is.
Instead tell your storm how big your GOD is !!!
In Phoenix, Arizona, a 26-year-old mother stared down at her 6 year old son, who was dying of terminal leukemia. Although her heart was filled with sadness, she also had a strong feeling of determination. Like any parent, she wanted her son to grow up and fulfill all his dreams. Now that was no longer possible.. The leukemia would see to that. But she still wanted her son's dreams to come true. She took her son's hand and asked, "Billy, did you ever think about what you wanted to be once you grew up? Did you ever dream and wish what you would do with your life?" Mommy, "I always wanted to be a fireman when I grew up." Mom smiled back and said, "Let's see if we can make your wish come true."
Later that day she went to her local fire department in Phoenix, Arizona, where she met Fireman Bob, who had a heart as big as Phoenix. She explained her son's final wish and asked if it might be possible to give her six year old son a ride around the block on a fire engine. Fireman Bob said, "Look, we can do better than that. If you'll have your son ready at seven o'clock Wednesday morning, we'll make him an honorary fireman for the whole day. He can come down to the fire station, eat with us, go out on all the fire calls, the whole nine yards! And if you'll give us ! his sizes, we'll get a real fire uniform for him, with a real fire hat-not a toy one-with the emblem of the Phoenix Fire Department on it, a yellow slicker like we wear and rubber boots. They're all manufactured right here in Phoenix, so we can get them fast."
Three days later Fireman Bob picked up Billy, dressed him in his fire uniform and escorted him from his hospital bed to the waiting hook and ladder truck. Billy got to sit on the back of the truck and help steer it back to the fire station. He was in heaven. There were three fire calls in Phoenix that day and Billy got to go out on all three calls. He rode in the different fire engines, the paramedic's van, and even the fire chief's car. He was also videotaped for the local news program.
Having his dream come true, with all the love and attention that was lavished upon him, so deeply touched Billy that he lived three months longer than any doctor thought possible.
One night all of his vital signs began to drop dramatically and the head nurse, who believed in the hospice concept that no one should die alone, began to call the family members to the hospital. Then she remembered the day Billy had spent as a fireman, so she called the Fire Chief and asked if it would be possible to send a fireman in uniform to the hospital to be with Billy as he made his transition. The chief replied, "We can do better than that. We'll be there in five minutes. Will you please do me a favor? When you hear the sirens screaming and see the lights flashing, will you announce over the PA system that there is not a fire? It's just the fire department coming to see one of its finest members one more time. And will you open the window to his room?
About five minutes later a hook and ladder truck arrived at the hospital and extended its ladder up to Billy's third floor open window 16 firefighters climbed up the ladder into Billy's room. With his mother's permission, they hugged him and held him and told him how much they loved him.
With his dying breath, Billy looked up at the fire chief and said, "Chief, am I really a fireman now?" "Billy, you are, and the Head Chief, Jesus, is holding your hand," the chief said. With those words, Billy smiled and said, "I know, He's been holding my hand all day, and the angels have been singing.." He closed his eyes one last time.
Stop telling God how big your storm is.
Instead tell your storm how big your GOD is !!!
Tuesday, May 03, 2005
Bio update.
Anyone wanting to know a bit more about me, my about me page has been updated. Just click here if you want to head right over there.
Saturday, April 23, 2005
Schools out!
Wow, I didn't realize I neglected my blog for so long. I probably have no one reading this anymore.
Last week I finished all my exams, assignments and school. The first semester was quite good. I learned so much about the bible. I am fascinated with God and His amazing plan for us. My professors bible study group, which mainly deals with the book of Revelations and Daniel, has been so awesome too. I can't even describe it. I'm am truly loving my classes. I met so many great people. I have been so busy. It's crazy but I love it that way.
I start my summer semester on May 9th. This semester is going to be even more crazy and probably harder then the last because I am still taking six classes, but in a very condensed time frame. Even so, I am still excited about starting again.
I wish that throughout my whole life I was this excited about school. My life would have been so much easier, but I do realize that I had to go through all those crazy times, like high school, to get where I am today. I thank God for where I am today and I can't wait for Him to teach me more about Himself as I come humbly before Him. He really is the most magnificent King on High!
God has been showing me some things in my life that have been blowing me away. As any human would do, I have had doubts at times, and I asked Him to confirm what He has shown me and He did both times. Usually at the last moment, but isn't that how God works. It takes faith, hope and love. It takes giving Him your all and trusting in His promises. I am so grateful for Him. There are no words to explain how thankful I am for my Saviour.
God bless you all. Have a most beautiful day, even if it's raining! :-)
Last week I finished all my exams, assignments and school. The first semester was quite good. I learned so much about the bible. I am fascinated with God and His amazing plan for us. My professors bible study group, which mainly deals with the book of Revelations and Daniel, has been so awesome too. I can't even describe it. I'm am truly loving my classes. I met so many great people. I have been so busy. It's crazy but I love it that way.
I start my summer semester on May 9th. This semester is going to be even more crazy and probably harder then the last because I am still taking six classes, but in a very condensed time frame. Even so, I am still excited about starting again.
I wish that throughout my whole life I was this excited about school. My life would have been so much easier, but I do realize that I had to go through all those crazy times, like high school, to get where I am today. I thank God for where I am today and I can't wait for Him to teach me more about Himself as I come humbly before Him. He really is the most magnificent King on High!
God has been showing me some things in my life that have been blowing me away. As any human would do, I have had doubts at times, and I asked Him to confirm what He has shown me and He did both times. Usually at the last moment, but isn't that how God works. It takes faith, hope and love. It takes giving Him your all and trusting in His promises. I am so grateful for Him. There are no words to explain how thankful I am for my Saviour.
God bless you all. Have a most beautiful day, even if it's raining! :-)
Tuesday, April 05, 2005
A little update on what's been going on in the world of Angela!
Hi to everyone that actually still comes to check this blog out. Sorry its been taking so long to post. It is nearing the end of my first semester at school and things have been just a little more hectic then I was hoping for. I just took a few minutes out of my studies to catch a breath or two.
School has been awesome. I have been diving into the Word and every time that I do, God shows me something new. I've been praying (I believe) better then I ever have before. I used to be and sometimes still am that type that had no clue what to say or even how to say it but, the Spirit has been working in me and prayers have been more efficient.
Church has also been a blessing. Last Sunday was so good. I don't even know how to describe it. And the Sunday past was about the heart and things that hinder it. It was refreshing. I don't know, but I feel God working even on the days that I don't seem to be and He is just so incredible. I want to see Jesus lifted up and I want His kingdom to grow. I know He is preparing me to be used. How awesome is this?!!!
Ok, I must get back to my work. Have a blessed day.
School has been awesome. I have been diving into the Word and every time that I do, God shows me something new. I've been praying (I believe) better then I ever have before. I used to be and sometimes still am that type that had no clue what to say or even how to say it but, the Spirit has been working in me and prayers have been more efficient.
Church has also been a blessing. Last Sunday was so good. I don't even know how to describe it. And the Sunday past was about the heart and things that hinder it. It was refreshing. I don't know, but I feel God working even on the days that I don't seem to be and He is just so incredible. I want to see Jesus lifted up and I want His kingdom to grow. I know He is preparing me to be used. How awesome is this?!!!
Ok, I must get back to my work. Have a blessed day.
Tuesday, March 22, 2005
It's almost been a week since I wrote last!! Holy Moly!
We celebrated my father's 53rd birthday today (and yesterday). We had a really nice dinner, both nights. My mom made a nice dinner for 15 people last night and because today was the official date we all went out to the Outback Steakhouse.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY DADDY! :-)
Earlier today I ventured to the Toronto Reference Library were I had to get some research done for a paper I am doing on 1Cor.13. This library is huge. It has five floors and you can get books dated way back to the 1800's, maybe even earlier. Anyway, I remember back when I was in college we had to do a bomb threat procedure on any building and I picked this library. The memories of college came rushing back and I kept thinking, a bomb threat! Wow, have my studies really changed since then. I wasn't a Christian back then and I never thought I would end up in the religion section, of all places. This has only been my second visit back to this particular library since the bomb threat procedure project. My first was only a week ago.
Time sure flies by so quickly. I remember when I was a kid and it seemed that the school year would take what felt like forever to end and now I look at the date and its already almost April, where did the year go? Where did the year go so far for you?
It is so sad to say but this year has been pretty hard for my family. We have already had two deaths, and three aunts and two uncles are either in or have been in the hospital. On a lighter note I got to share the message of Jesus to family members, my sister is having a baby which is due in April, my dad/brother/uncle and cousin are going to church on Wednesday, my cousin is getting married this fall, and lately we have been sharing a lot of family memories, which have been beautiful.
Cherish the times together because you really don't know when the big guy up there is going to call you home.
Love, embrace, share, laugh, cry and enjoy!!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY DADDY! :-)
Earlier today I ventured to the Toronto Reference Library were I had to get some research done for a paper I am doing on 1Cor.13. This library is huge. It has five floors and you can get books dated way back to the 1800's, maybe even earlier. Anyway, I remember back when I was in college we had to do a bomb threat procedure on any building and I picked this library. The memories of college came rushing back and I kept thinking, a bomb threat! Wow, have my studies really changed since then. I wasn't a Christian back then and I never thought I would end up in the religion section, of all places. This has only been my second visit back to this particular library since the bomb threat procedure project. My first was only a week ago.
Time sure flies by so quickly. I remember when I was a kid and it seemed that the school year would take what felt like forever to end and now I look at the date and its already almost April, where did the year go? Where did the year go so far for you?
It is so sad to say but this year has been pretty hard for my family. We have already had two deaths, and three aunts and two uncles are either in or have been in the hospital. On a lighter note I got to share the message of Jesus to family members, my sister is having a baby which is due in April, my dad/brother/uncle and cousin are going to church on Wednesday, my cousin is getting married this fall, and lately we have been sharing a lot of family memories, which have been beautiful.
Cherish the times together because you really don't know when the big guy up there is going to call you home.
Love, embrace, share, laugh, cry and enjoy!!
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