Hi Y'all from Texas!!!

Hi Y'all. I am in Texas for training with American Airlines for two weeks. I arrived last night and had our first test this morning. It was a bit intense last night trying to get over jet lag and studying. There was a big build up regarding the test because it was a do or die situation. You had to pass with an 80% or else they turn around and send you back home on the next available flight. One person from the last group got sent home which sent this group in full alert mode.

Now that that is done, I can relax a little bit more. Now I know what to expect and what is expected of me. It's a little hard being away from everyone at home. I know that I will have a lot to do and my mind, hopefully won't go into sad mode.

The nice thing is that the weather is absolutely beautiful. It is like 20 degrees celsuis and I am loving every minute of it. It was sunny earlier and it is raining at the moment but I love the rain so that is a bonus. Plus they are feeding us too well. I am trying to watch what I eat but they offer so much here and it's all free. I have been trying to fill up on salad and turn down desserts but I will cave eventually due to the chocolate mousse cake factor. :-)

Things to look forward too:
-Going to Fort Worth on the weekend to maybe try bull riding and see some real cowboys.
-Going to get manicure and hopefully pedicure.
-Passing and working at the airport with amazing benefits.
-Going home to see all the people I love dearly.

Matthew and Jesus :-)

Two weeks ago, the most amazing thing happened. While my kids and I were doing morning worship my son was acting silly. (that's not the amazing part :) 'cause he's always silly) Anyway, after worship we prayed and right as we finished praying my son said something to me. He said 'Mom, I don't have Jesus in my heart'. I proceeded to ask him if he wanted Him in his heart. But not just that, I had to tell my six year old that it is a matter of actually believing in some important Christian foundations and that after everything I told him, if he believed in those things that He could pray for salvation now or if and when he felt it was time. I told him that I would love him the same whether or not he accepted Jesus and that it is his conviction, his choice in the whole matter. (don't forget, I am telling him all of this in six year old language). Well, what do you think happened next? He started to tear up and said 'I want Jesus in my heart'. And so, I told him all that he needed to do and that little guy that I love so much and is so dear to my heart, gave his life to Jesus. Amazing, I tell ya, amazing!!! Praise Jesus!!! Alleluia!! My God is an Awesome God He reigns from Heaven above with wisdom power and love, MY GOD IS AN AWESOME GOD!!! Woo Hoo!

The last first...

How crazy is it when you have waited all your life for your last first. Well, yesterday marked the end of the old and the beginning of the rest of my life. The one God promised to me two whole years ago, kissed me yesterday and it was the beginning of a God-centred WOW life. I can not wait until the day we say 'I do'.

I must admit that no matter how excited I am, I am just as scared inside. I've been playing the waiting game for so long that now that it is finally here, it seems to be moving in hyper speed. Which by the way, I don't mind. But even so, there is a little voice inside saying be careful, be cautious, hold back and be prepared to be hurt again. I know it is just fear but, the Lord didn't give me the spirit of fear. So I have to ask, 'why am I scared'?

Maybe it is second nature that when you want something so bad for so long, it becomes a dream that you never think will actually become reality and then when God finally gives it to you it doesn't seem real. You don't know how to act or react, you are dumbfounded. It's so weird because I feel ecstatic. I have so many emotions running through my body and most of them are high pressured, heart pumping, breathe stopping, electrical waves. The sad thing is there are two emotions that are fighting. They are so closely related too. They are fear and excitement. I can feel the sword fight and I know which one is winning. I guess it is just me being cautious, except I don't want to be, and that is why I fighting.

Anyway, this week has been awesome and I am only looking forward to more. More Lord, more for 2007. Maybe fairytales do exist! :-)

Weekend Fun!

This weekend I had a lot of fun. I took Matthew, Alyssa and the neighbourhood kids toboganing. I have not been on a tobogan in years. I forgot how much fun it actually is. I remember when Skye was about 4 and I took her on some hills by my house. I made a smaller hill at the bottom so we could fly like superman. It was too fun. Our butt's hurt by the time we got home, but man that was too cool! This time however, I was so nervous going down a hill. It really is true what they say; as you get older you become too cautious and allow fear to creep in. The kids were having a blast though. They were riding the sleds like snowboards. Crazy fun! None of them got hurt and it was hilarious when they flipped. Afterwards, we all went home for some hot chocolate and sat down to watch a movie while we denumbed our bums. :-)

Church was pretty awesome on Sunday too! My team was leading the Kids Ministry and we had a special speaker, Dan Slade, come and talk to the kids. He told them of his amazing mission trip 3 weeks ago to the Ukraine. How at a Pastor's and Leader's Conference, God used a 12yr old girl to prophecy over the Leaders. How the congregation fell down silent in the presence of the Holy Spirit and how God is going to use children in the next revival. He had the kids so captivated that when he told them what had happened it got a lot of kids at our church excited. More then half a dozen accepted the Lord Jesus as their saviour, others wanted to be baptised in the Holy Spirit. We as the leaders prayed over them. It was such an experience that I can not fully describe how wow it was.

Some of the leaders have been sensing God wanting to impart and equip the children into ministry. We have been putting on equipping classes for families and the turn outs have been great. God is moving and I really want my kids and I to be a part of it.

I also have heard that a lot of God's promises that He has made to people will be fulfilled this year. This makes me very happy because I have been waiting awhile on some. I know some people who have been waiting 10yrs, others 3yrs. This is going to be a big year!! I can't wait.

We also went to Matthew's hockey game. It is the cutest thing seeing 6-7yr olds play hockey. They work so hard and try to perform like the big kids. The league Matthew is in is very impressive. Their practices are so organized, no time is wasted and they really work the kids with fun, encouraging drills and the improvement in these kids have been amazing.

Anyway, weekend was good, this week so far has been good. All in all, things are good! :-)

American Airlines here I come!

So I just got back from my second interview for American Airlines. This was the first job interview in many, many years that I was nervous going into. I guess I was nervous for a few reasons. This would be the first time in a long time that I have done something just for me, and yet the bonus is, it benefits a lot of others. Second, they basically said in the first interview that if you get a call for a second interview to be prepared to fly. Which then says to me, second interview means that you got the job. As I waited outside the interview room, I second guessed myself. I wasn't so sure that it meant I absolutely got the job and I didn't really prepare myself for the interview. I prayed, tried to relax, and after what felt like a long time, it was my turn to go in.

The two ladies that interviewed me were very friendly which definitely eased my nerves a bit. I answered and answered and then was graded. I was offered the job which was awesome. I felt so much relief. Probably because my dad wanted me to have this job so badly and I didn't want to let him down. Well, I didn't and so after a week of training at Pearson, I will be flying to Dallas, Texas to be trained for another two weeks.

This is really exciting! I have never travelled anywhere alone before, and although I will miss my two amazing kids, I am excited to be out on my own for two weeks. Now it is just a matter of working out the details with their fathers. I think they should look at it as an awesome opportunity to spend extra quality time with them. Something that isn't always so easy to come by. :-)

Trusting, obeying, and letting God...

Two years ago this month God spoke over me a promise. I have struggled with this promise so much, mostly because I was looking at it in the natural. I didn't realize that God was setting in motion more than I could ever imagine in the supernatural. I went through a very rocky road, I like to call it a roller coaster that never wanted to end.

The amazing thing that I see in all of this is that I am so much more dependant on God. He taught me so many things through my struggles that I can't even begin to write down. I think the biggest and most significant progress that I have made in these past two years is to trust and obey God. I know, sounds simple, but to me it was a battle I fought with tooth and nail. I have felt a lot of hurts and I have been let down so many times that it was just natural for me to put God in the same category as everyone else.

Jesus worked hard on me, and most times I didn't want to give in. I'm naturally a fighter, strong headed and stubborn and so it wasn't so difficult to fight with God too. Except when one fights with God it's only so long before you have to give in. I am much less stubborn now, although admitingly it slips out from time to time. I think my heart is growing more and more. When I think I have had enough of this promise and I'm tired of waiting, God rains down more love upon me. I think long time ago it would have been easier to give up on the promise and yet every time I were to give it back to God, God always gave it back to me.

Late last year the promise seemed so real, like it was so close and in what felt like a blink of an eye it crumbled to the ground, was stomped on a few times and then rode over by a bulldozer. And yet, by that time God had equipped me, dealt with me and I was able to hold on to the promise. Which seems kind of weird because at that time it would have made perfect sense to give it up. Jesus knew what He was doing with me, even when I had no clue though.

Over the past two years I had become dependant on Him, I had fell so in love with Him, and I trusted Him. So when it seemed to all else that the promise could no longer be, I looked up. I let go and let God. I've heard so many times people say 'Let go and let God' but to me it seemed foreign. It seemed simple enough and yet for me, it was so hard to put into practice. Last year however, God brought me into relationships with some very Godly people and the advice, counsel, prayer etc. that I received enabled me to do just that. The very thing I was fighting with. It really is so much better to let go and let God do His work. I think sometimes, probably due to stubborness, I allow things to go on longer than they need too because I find it so hard to let go.

You see last weekend I fully let go and gave this promise to God again. God gave it back to me the next day. He showed me things that I hadn't seen before and that I needed to see. Then God told me that I had to let go again so that the promise could be fulfilled. He needed to do something and as long as I was there trying to help He couldn't fully do His work. This did not make sense to me. When I prayed about it, God told me to do 'nothing'. I couldn't fathom doing nothing and so I let myself go through another battle. Luckily I realized, with the help of a mentor or two, that it is in God's hands, it always has been and trusting Him that He will do what He says required that I let go.

Obedience is also something that I've been working on. God often says things that seem to go against our very nature. He tells us to go one way when to us it makes more sense to go another way. But I've learned that He is the one who sees the big picture and it is us who need to start living for the big picture and not the here and now. Walking in obedience takes that trust that I so often had failed to give. I see so many things that I hadn't seen before and it is all because God hasn't given up on me. He is walking hand in hand to take me to my place. The place that He has called me to be. I find this all so exciting. Scary, but exciting.

I trust God at His word, it is just scary sometimes. I think it is a woman thing: wanting to be needed, wanting to help in any way. But God says 'No, let me do what I need to do, and then all things will be turned around in your favour'. So, I am letting Him do what He needs to do and trusting that all things will be turned around in my favour. I still want so badly to help and every day I ask God if I can, but God still says 'It is not yet time'. He did show me something magnificant in a vision on Friday. I was very happy to receive it, and not until yesterday did I fully get the magnitude of it. It was awesome. I saw the promise had come to me and it was pure, holy, had spiritual growth, was healthy and covered and protected by the blood. The promise was excited and shy at the same time but kept coming. It was so spiritual that it flutters my insides.

I am expecting great things this year. I honestly can not wait. It has been a dream of mine forever and God says it is coming. It may not have been exactly like I had wanted, and it definitely had more ups and downs than I had imagined, but when I saw that vision, I knew it is worth the wait. I find it exciting, and I believe this story when it is all said and done will encourage so many people to just trust and believe God when He speaks something over you. I am truly blessed.